The Simplicity in a Need

Chapter 12

He was ranting until he groans loudly and shakes his head. I laugh slightly. It makes me feel a little better to know I'm not the only socially awkward person here.

"Well I'll text you, and I won't freak this time, just let me know if you can't talk, alright?" He says pushing his soft wavy hair out of his face.

I nod in agreement, "I will, I'm sorry, I'll text you after I quickly get dressed."

Matt nods and smiles at me, "okay bye!"

"Bye," I smile back and he hangs up with a cute giggle. I put my forgotten cigarette out in one of my many ashtrays and toss my phone on the bed.

I don't stop smiling as I head to my closet and quickly try and pick out an outfit. I ultimately just go with tight black jeans that were ripped at the knees and have a chain stretching from the far left belt loop to the left front loop and white T-shirt. I throw a yellow hoodie over that.

(A/n-the hoodie in the book is that color but doesn't have any writing on it. The pants is exactly the same."

I then grab my phone and see I have three text messages.

1:21

Mattie🐯: guys our boy Ronnys a whole snack.

Ced😈: wth r u saying lmao

Mattie🐯: I FaceTimed him and he was all kinds of just got of the shower, bad boy cigarette smoking hotness, his shoulders were like yours but white. You know I gotta a thing for shoulders.

I can't help but blush as I read the messages and I begin typing an embarrassed reply when Ced answers.

Ced😈: u r such a perv, he probably didn't even think to cover his poor shoulders and ur over there fetishizing them.

Me: wow.

Mattie🐯: THIS WASNT A PRIVATE CONVERSATION? CED HOW YOU LET ME PLAY MYSELF LIKE THAT!

Ced😈: for all I know, u wanted him to know.

Mattie🐯: 😧I did not😭

I'm still blushing as my back onto my bed sighing. They were so distinctly different when they typed. Mattie liked emojis and was more playful. Ced abbreviated a lot and didn't care for punctuation in a text. Dean, even though I haven't seen much, is straight to the point.

Me: I'll make sure I have a shirt on next time, sorry

1:36

Ced😈: u gotta stop saying sorry 4 everything

Me: sorry

Me: I mean okay

Ced😈: bro, chill

I huff slightly and groan. Did I apologize a lot? Probably I was so used to doing everything wrong. It was an automatic reaction.

1:42

Dean🐻: Do you need a ride? I don't want you walking.

I shiver slightly. I wasn't necessarily scared of Dean. Actually he turned me on quite a bit but that was what worried me. I submitted to him so easily. I just don't want to be someone's toy again.

Me: I can drive.

1:49

Mattie🐯: you have a car?

Me: yea, I don't use much though. I like walking.

I stand up with a sigh and walk into the bathroom grabbing their clothes. I walk back out and to the large closet that holds my washer and dryer. I shove them into the wash and start it.

I check my phone and smile when I see one new message.

Mattie🐯: makes sense.

I didn't really understand what that meant, but I decided not to question it. I look at the wash and realize I left my clothes at their house. I shrug and just close the closet door setting an alarm for 30 minutes. I walk to the fridge and grab a bottle of water while typing a reply.

Me: so what exactly will we be doing?

The question amps up my anxiousness and causes me to shuffle. I end up walking around the kitchen counter trying to calm down. At this rate I was going to need to blow one of them as soon as I arrive. I actually enjoyed having them as friends.

Ced😈: what do you mean? Hanging out, smoking, drinking, we're gonna have a small bonfire

My face lights up. He made it seems like it wasn't a big deal but I had never done anything like that. I was excited. Briefly my anxiousness is gone and replaced with pure happiness until my doubt kick in and I sigh.