i quickly notice all of us feeling a buzz from the flowing alcohol as i sit with cal and lux, sipping on a gin and lemonade. "last night was strange." lux turns to me.
"you're not the first one to say that." i raise my eyebrows, glancing around the rest of the boat and i soon find myself gazing at simon chatting to vik, ellie and josh.
"yeah, but it was weird." cal looks at me and i quickly turn to face him, rolling my eyes.
"i know." i reply bitterly, nodding at him. "oh fuck, i brought my polaroid!" i raise my voice, suddenly coming to the realisation as i stand up, hunting for my bag. finding it, i pull out the camera, squealing with excitement at the thought of capturing the best images and memories. i instantly begin capturing photos, hiding the printed out polaroids in my bag in the shade to create the perfect images. "josh, take one of me, ellie and freya." i grin at him, handing the camera as the three of us pose whilst smiling at the camera. i then run over to cal and lux who are now sat with ethan and harry, "oh, someone take a photo of us?" i yell to everyone else and i notice tobi walking over. i hand him the camera as we all shuffle around to create the perfect image. cal wraps an arm around my shoulder, resting his head on mine as i grin and harry squeezes next to me flashing a toothy smile at the camera. ethan comes behind us, putting two middle fingers up to the camera and lux leans in front of us all. tobi captures the image and hands the camera back to me as i eagerly wait for the picture to develop.
"ayo, i want a photo!" jj strolls over, shouting at the top of his lungs.
"okay, okay. anyone else wanna be in a photo?" i raise my voice, looking around the yacht. soon enough, everyones gathering around, clambering on top of one another to try be in the photo. i remain squashed between harry and cal.
"i don't wanna be in it." simon moans.
"nah simon, come on man. we'll get the driver to take it, the boat is still at the moment." jj pipes up, attempting to get his best friend in the photo.
"nah." he shakes his head, leaning to grab the camera from me.
"take some on your phone too, please! and put them in the groupchat." cal requests, only receiving a small nod from simon.
"3, 2, 1." simon counts down as we all flash a cheesy grin to the polaroid and as it comes from the camera, he quickly puts it in his pocket away from the light. he then pulls out his phone, capturing as many photos as possible til people find themselves squashed and uncomfortable on top of one another.
"cheers, simon." tobi smiles as simon passes me the camera and image, which i put into my bag. i offer him an appreciative smile, but he simply turns away from me and walks back over to josh. huffing, i roll my eyes and turn my attention away from the slender boy, deciding to pour myself another drink.
he frustrates me. how can someone possibly be so rude? i wish i could understand why he instantly chose to dislike me, without me barely having to even utter a word to him. he constantly makes me feel as though i have done something wrong, trying to push me away from everyone, possibly due to jealousy. 'what i hate is the fact you're ignoring me', what does that even mean? when i offer him a smile, he turns away from me. when i try be nice, he throws it back in my face. so when it's my choice to be hostile towards him, he reacts like a child.
"your mind seems to be somewhere else." freya approaches me, watching me stare at the views ahead of me, sipping on my drink.
"yeah." i bite my lip slightly, turning to face her. "i guess it kind of is." i awkwardly smile, glancing across the boat to simon who stares back at me. it's as though we constantly have staring contests, like it is our way of fighting and attempting to see 'who's better'.
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hatred | miniminter
Romance"hatred is often associated with feelings of anger, disgust and a disposition towards the source of hostility." i think it is our fate to never get along.
