Wrong Relationship ? [M.sn x Reader]

Chapter 11

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"I-i'm happy. Yes,I'm happy when I'm with you."

Come on Ji, be strong now!

"Just happy? I'm not sure with that.
But if you don't tell me, than I'll tell you first what I feel."

Don't do it to me,Sana. Please,I'm not ready.

She looked up at the sky again and she close her eyes for a sec with a deep breath,before she talking.
"When you first time helped me in the restroom that time, I could feel something inside of me. I feel comfortable,I feel my heart flutter,I feel save in your arm,and I can feel nervous a bit when I'm with you. And when I'm sleep on top you when we're doing sleepover with the others, when you're comforting me at the park, it made my feelings grow even more. I know I'm straight,but I think I'm gay because of you."

She look at me after that.

"W-wait. S-so, you tell me i-if you have feel-"

"Uhm. But even so, I can't date you."

And again, my heart broke after I heard the last 4 words she said. My eyes start watery and almost want to drip, but I look in another direction and bit my lip underneath to keep me for not crying in front of her.

"W-why?"

"My parents is homophobic, especially my father. If they know about it, I don't know what will happen to me. That's why I can't. Now, tell me what do you feel when you're with me?"

Okay, she's already confess her feeling and I think it's the time for confess the truth of my feeling too.

"W-when I'm with you, I feel happy.
I feel my days are brighter when I'm with you. Your laughter, your carelessness, your cuteness,it also makes me feel the same way you feel. But there is one feeling that you may not feel for me. Jealous. I-i get jealous when I see you together with Bambam. I was jealous when I saw you in the park that time. I saw you kissing, and it b-broke my heart. I-i feel it's too late to confess my true feelings to you. A-and honestly, I can't see you crying. Y-you may not realize that I'm always there for you. And since that incident, that's why I-i ignored you and tried to stay away f-from you. I'm Sorry."

My voice stuttered because my tears came out without me noticing. But I tried to speak again. I cleared my throat and look down because I can't see her.

"A-and now I just want to say to you that I..."

"I-i love you."

She was shocked and blink her eyes by the three words that came out of my mouth.