If You Think I'm Gonna Come Up With A Title For This, You're Dead Wrong

Chapter 14

"Not his circus not his monkeys. 'Sides," you shrug, "he was already being really caring and understanding, and I was already sobbing my eyes out, which I'm sure he already told you, so."

You stare down at your tea. "Are you going to elaborate?"

"Not if I don't have to, no." Your face heats up.

"Do you want my help?"

'I hate this,' you squirm. "Honestly, I wouldn't be here if Donnie hadn't asked me to."

"For someone who believes in leaving people to their own devices," he notes, "you seem to value the requests of my son a great deal."

Your knees are back up to your chest. "He's important to me. He's been there for me. It's the least I can do."

He takes a beat to gather his thoughts. You brace yourself for a lecture.

"You care for him, then."

You nod once, treading carefully.

"Romantically?"

You still do not look at him directly, staring instead at the gorgeous screen door. "I dunno." Your fingernails scratch at the surface. "I'm not exactly in my right mind, you understand."

"I can't say I do." A pause as he takes another drink. "Then again, I've only felt for one woman all my life."

"Look at that," you try to joke. "Another difference between us."

"Do you mind letting me in, then?"

"A little," you admit, "but I will since there isn't really a point to being here if I don't."

"That's the spirit." You can hear his smile.

You set the cup down again, glancing up at him before fiddling with the laces on your shoe. "People under stress and without anywhere else to turn tend to latch onto the first people they relate to," you explain, practicing your knot tying with fumbling fingers; there is no harm in practicing your dexterity. "He was the first guy I met after I died, got kidnapped, and almost got killed by a giant vine creature. I like him," you clarify quickly, "I really do, but it's hardly fair to pursue that sort of relationship, especially considering everything going on with the Kraang and Shredder." Your eyes go out of focus. "We get along great," you mumble. "He's sweet, kind, generous, and empathetic. He deserves to make sense of his feeling properly without me muddying things up with my possibly trauma-induced attachment."

"So," he clarifies, "it is not that you aren't in love with him, but, instead, you're worried for his sake?"

Your face goes scarlet as you choke on your saliva. "T-that's a bit—uh—extreme, isn't it?" You rub the back of your burning neck. "I'm not even sixteen, Yoshi. You don't understand love properly at sixteen!"

"I fell for my wife at thirteen," he smiles. "It's certainly not impossible."

"That's—look," you protest, "that is entirely besides the point. The point," you state, "is that is completely irresponsible for me to pursue a relationship with your son. Frankly, I'm surprised you don't agree."

"He cares for you. You know that. Who am I to decide who he does and does not pursue, especially when that person makes him happy?" He reaches for a worn kettle sitting between you two on a table, pouring its contents back into his teacup—you remember Leo telling you that it is technically called a yunomi. "I find love typically does no harm so long as it does not consume you. Moderation is key."

You look up at him. "So, you don't have any reservations about it?"

He takes another drink. "I wouldn't say that. He is my son, after all. In truth," he admits, "I was more concerned that my sons would never experience what I did than anything. Given the circumstances of our existence, I'm sure you can understand my wish to give them a relatively normal, happy life."