Hiraeth |Razor x Reader|

Chapter 4

"But cat eat little. Eat many.. like Razor."

That's right, Y/n only ate a small portion of the raw meat, but she didn't have the appetite to consume anything. "No, I'm fine, thank you for your concern."

His head tilted in confusion, like a cat tilting its head as it looked to a new toy. "Concern? What is concern?"

Not only did his words broke immeasurably, he was limited in vocabulary as well. She took in a brief moment, pursing her lips together before explaining to him what does 'concern' mean.

"Concern is... another word for worry. Something you feel bad about, anxious, and not able to feel the actual peace and happiness."

Something like that if it's based on her experience. Worry of betrayal, worry of actual peace, worry of financial, and worry of the vivid future. Razor leaned forward, scooching closer to her.

"Do cat ever feel... concern?"

Blink

"Pardon?"

Razor didn't move his gaze, but waited patiently for her answer. "Do cat ever feel 'concern'?" There was a brief moment of silence between them, leaving her in awe. No one had ever bothered to ask her about her conditions, not even a small genuine, "how are you?"

Yet, the more she thought about it, she could confirm herself that everything would be fine.

"... Everyone ever felt that. Worry of something or someone, it's a normal thing."

"So, cat felt that? Why?"

Now, his glazing red eyes were filled of curiosity. Just, what made him this interested about her? "I'm sorry, but it's none of your concern."

"None.. of... concern?"

"Haah.." she sighed, slowly supporting her head with her hand.

Guess this will be a long day for her.

***

The night fell upon Mondstad, silencing every creature that lived around to sleep. But not Y/n.

The fire cackled, showering the cold  night cave with the warmth. Seeing closely, she could see how the fire radiated the night so brightly, dancing with so much carefree, she had never seen such sight in her life before.

During her first day in the cave, she had ordered Razor to sleep far away from her一to the corner of the cave. Her body couldn't relax, they were stiff and tensed, especially from her stomach.

Y/n stood up, brushing off the dirt from her messy designed dress. Hand trailed to the wall for support before she fell from her high heels. Ladies were expected to wear high heels and dresses along accesories.

Those ideal beauties pressured her. Even though her eyes blinged by shine of the jewelry she had, it still felt heavy and unfitting.

That's when she decided...

Y/n walked outside of the silent cave, followed by the sound of her heels that clanked against the land. Once she did, her eyes were met with the dark forest, the howls of wolves and birds, and others.

"His Grace gave you something. You have to take good care of it."

She took off both of her heels, hitting the end of the heels to the ground. She hit and hit it till the end broke, leaving her with normal shoes.

"You're a lady, soon to be the wife of a duke! Wear your dress properly!"

The dress weighed her down, she decided to rip some parts off.