Swap it out ~Justin Bieber~

Chapter 49: Truths, lies and surprise gifts

"No you don't! You didn't even know that you caused all this until I just told you. Did you ever even call to check up on us?" 

"Well I wanted to but-" 

"But what? You were too busy meeting some other guy and getting married and starting a whole new life!"

"I had to go! I had no choice," Her voice cracks, "Your dad and I wanted to get divorced before the accident anyway," She sighs, running her manicured fingers through her hair.

"And who's fault was that?" I hiss angrily. She bows her head down in shame. It made sense , "Dad had a small thing with Aunt Pearl. It's probably because you were seeing that dickhead behind his back too." 

She glares, "His name is Jordan, and he's a lovely man." 

I cross my arms over my chest, "Yeah well his son's a dickhead so he must have gotten it from someone in the family." 

"Okay, I know you're mad," Mad? I am not mad. She clearly doesn't understand that mad would be an understatement for how I felt. I can't believe my siblings and I were betrayed like this. I can't believe my dad even knew about this whole thing and never even told us.

My parent's telling us that they were getting divorced would have been so much easier. But no, my mom just had to pretend to drop dead. 

"But I have my reasons. I know what I did wasn't right but I was upset about Carter's death. No parent wants to see their kid dead before them." I see tears forming in her eyes.

"Yeah well no good parent would pretend to die so they can start over." I snap. She looks away ashamed and in defeat. 

"I know, i'm a terrible mother. I shouldn't have just left like that. But i'm so lucky that I was saved and didn't actually over dose because I wouldn't have the life with Jordan and our kids. And what I realized was that I was never actually happy with your father. Neither was he, I had to leave. He told you guys I passed and the night I got out of the hospital I left. I changed my name, my job, I traveled and then I got in contact with Jordan again." 

"Okay, I get it. You two got married, had a kid together and were so much happier," I said in a not so cheery tone.

"I know it's hard to understand but there's nothing I can do. Would I change what I did in the past to take away the pain and what happened with you kids? In a heart beat. But I can't undo what I did, can I?" 

My shoulders slump and I realize she's right. Giselle or Rosaline or whatever was right. She may no longer be a motherly figure to me and what she did was insane and wrong but she can't undo what happened. 

"I'm g-going to go." I whisper, grabbing my things. Rosaline nods, looking down at her lap in disapointment. When i'm ready I get up and leave the table but I stop in my tracks looking back at her. She's upset. I watch as she wipes a small tear away. Sighing, I march back over. 

"Listen," I start, catching her attention, "Kennedy was so lucky that she went to go live with Aunt Jamie. At least she got some sort of motherly figure. She was probably the best mom out there." I start.            

"I'm not going to pity you and lie saying how much I would love for you to be back in my life or say that you would have been a better mom than Aunt Jamie or anything because that's not true. It hurts right? But you're so happy with your new family because your old one didn't matter so I guess this won't matter to you but i'm just going to say it because i'm so done with all of this bullshit." 

I take a deep breath. Wow i'm really going to say it. It's going to hurt her, or maybe not who know's, but I have to say it. "I think life just would have been easier knowing that you were dead." I say in one breath, shrugging my shoulders I did so. 

Her mouth hangs open and I know a few people are listening in. 

"I-i"

I raise my hand up, "Don't. Just don't. You've done enough. I talked to Kennedy about this and she said she doesn't want to met you or be in contact with you. I can't say the same about the others but I mean who knows." 

With that I leave without saying anything else. Yes, I know that was a terrible thing to do but I can't just sit there and let her squirm right through into our family. She left and started a new one, why does she need to be back here. I pull the black hood of my hoodie over my head, covering my face as I walked onto the streets. I didn't want to somehow run into someone and let them see me this close to breaking down.

What I said was the truth. It was just so much easier knowing that she was dead.

~

Lately the Jashley couple has been apart. A source has called in and told us exclusively that JB and his girlfriend Ashley King have been having some trouble. 

Not only that but Ashley was caught at Caffe Luxxe in a pretty heated conversation! Some of our sources say they over heared them talking about marriage! Does this mean Bieber proposed and got a no? 

Our source say's that Justin and Ashley haven't been in touch for a bit because they've been going though some rough spots but Justin is trying hard to patch things up with her. He doesn't want her to be some old flame. 

So what do you think? Are Justin and Ashley tying the knot or are they cutting it loose? Let us know!

"This is absloute bullshit," I scoff, throwing the dumb magazine onto the coffee table. I'm glad that they didn't actually hear the full conversation or else I would have freaked. 

I haven't heard of Justin in a while and if their source was really right then they clearly are wrong. Justin hasn't tried to fix things with me and neither have I. Texting me to reply doesn't count. I made it clear that whatever we considered to be was over. I don't see why he doesn't just give up on me.

On us. 

There's a knock at the door and I inwardly groan, knowing I have to move from comfy spot to get it. Neither Vanessa or Austin were home today. I get up from my spot and walk to the door, pulling it up. 

I frown not seeing anyone at the door. What the hell? 

Instead, there's a box. I run to the kitchen, grabbing a wooden spoon. I walk back to the doorway and make a distance between myself and the box. I crouch down and poke the box with the wooden spoon.

I swear I hear someone chuckle in the distance but I don't see anyone.

When it doesn't explode I slowly pick it up, bringing it into the flat. 

I open the box. Inside was a small little bear holding a heart. I smile at the cute little bear, holding it up in my hands. I realize that there's a picture sticking out from between the heart and the bear. I pull it out.

It was a picture of Justin smiling down at me as I was in mid laugh. The picture was back when we went to Hawaii. It was a beautiful photo. I felt my heart breaking. The way he was looking at me in the photo was as if I was the only thing he saw. His eyes full of love and passion.

I notice there's a small white note in the box so I pick it up and read it;

To K

i'm not giving up on us.

Those six simple words make my heart flip. 

I know I ended things with Justin but there was a small voice in the back of my head telling me I made the wrong choice to ends things with him. 

'i'm not giving up on us.' Maybe I won't either but was I ready to try was the question.

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A/N:

Yayyyyy its another update! wow kennedy was so harsh to her mom about this wowie. I tried to make it a little 'dramatic' but it wasn't that dramatic lol. anywho this chapter kinda sucks and i re wrote this four times and i'm still not happy with how this turned out...

yeah. okay well that's it. Have a nice day/week

-Diana