The Mob Character Shouldn't Have A Yandere Harem?!

55 - Confusing And Conflicting Emotions

He was fighting for my sake too.

He's always been there for me. While our friendship was different from mine and Erica's, I still knew I could always count on him.

That's why he helped me get over the rejection.

That's why he saved me when I was falling.

Ken's saved me so many times...

Ken is unorthodox. He's not like Erica who helps anyone she can see, but that doesn't mean that he's a bad person. He just takes a different approach.

It's like when he helped that girl with the pistol. He immediately went to help her, showcasing the kindness he usually hid.

I can't lie...I truly do love him...

And I love Erica too...

Why...?

Why does it have to be like this?

Tears dripped from my face, dropping onto the sheets of my bed like sprinkling raindrops. I love him...but I can't...

I'm such a terrible person...

Why am I like this...?

I can't...I can't...

My cries started to get louder, morphing from silent sobs to loud wails.

I hate myself!

What am I like this?!

They were all right...I am a bitch...I'm a terrible person...the horns on my head prove this...

A stray thought entered my mind. One that I shouldn't think about. One that I knew both Erica and Ken would hate...

I summoned Hassan, staring at my shaking hand which held it...

The doorbell suddenly rung, catching me by surprise. I quickly desummoned Hassan and wiped the tears from my face.

I hope whoever it is doesn't notice...

I sat up, getting out of my bed. I stumbled to the front door of my apartment, checking through the little hole to see who it is.

Erica?!

I slightly opened the door, peeking through to look at her. "H-hey...what are you doing here?" I nervously asked her.

"You said you were sick, so I wanted to come over to check on you." Erica smiled.

I love your kindness, but please leave me alone today!

"I-I'm fine..." I lied. "Y-you should go, I don't want to make you sick..."

Erica looked at me, before narrowing her eyes. "What's wrong?"

"W-what do you mean?" I nervously asked.

"I know you Lily. You're hiding something. What is it?" Erica replied.

"N-nothing!" I stated, my voice a higher pitch than I intended.

Erica shoved her foot into the doorway, catching me by surprise. Using that she quickly opened the door, letting herself in and closing the door behind her.

She looked at me, eyes widening as she saw my face. She quickly dragged me to my bed, before sitting me down on it and sitting next to me.

"What's wrong?" Erica softly asked once more.

"N-nothing's wrong..." I weakly replied.

We both knew that was a lie.

"You're eyes are red. You've been crying." Erica observed. "Please tell me what's wrong Lily...you're my friend. I want to help."

I felt the tears leak out once more, dripping down my cheeks as Erica watched.

"I-I'm sorry!" I cried.

Erica lightly grabbed me, placing my head on her shoulder so I could cry into it. Her shirt started to get wet, soaked by tears.

"I-I'm such a terrible person!" I sobbed. "I-it's supposed to be you!"

"Lily, what's going on?" She softly asked.

"I...I fell in love with Ken..." I revealed.

Erica looked at me with surprised eyes.

"I shouldn't have!" I screamed. "I loved you! I said I'd love you forever...but...I betrayed you...and even fell in love with the same man you love..."

"I'm terrible...I'm becoming just like her...a slut...a whore..." I sobbed. "Why am I like this?"

"Hey. Hey." Erica said, pushing my face to look at hers. "Don't say that."

"What?" I asked, confused.

"Don't say that about yourself. I don't know who you think you're becoming, but you're not like her. You're not a slut, nor a whore." Erica argued.

"But...but..." I tried to fight back, but Erica quickly shushed me.

"You're one of my best friends Lily. I don't want to hear you say that." Erica stated.

We sat in silence, as Erica held me. Erica really is so kind...

"My mother." I stated.

Erica looked at me, curious.

"My mother was a drunkard who would go out in the morning. Every day, she'd find new prey. A new man. Every day, sleeping with another man." I slowly stated.

"She said it was her duty as a Succubus. She said I was a mistake because I wanted to save myself for the man I'd love..." I finished.

"Lily...that's terrible." Muttered Erica. "You aren't a mistake."

"But...I'm becoming just like her...jumping from man to man..." I argued.

"You aren't. Because I'm a woman. That means Ken is the first man you've fallen for, doesn't it?" Erica replied.

"But I thought you were-" I tried to respond, but Erica quickly cut me off.

"That doesn't matter." Erica shook her head. "You didn't leave me after you found out, did you? You're still my best friend, and you're nothing like your mother."

We sat in silence once more as I soaked the words in. Was I really not like my mother? But I'm a filthy Succubus, just like her...

Erica's words rang through my mind, reminding me of how Erica didn't see me that way.

Would Ken see me that way?

...no, he wouldn't. I don't even need to think about that. Ken had always been by my side. Just like Erica, he hadn't cared that I was a Succubus.

Ken...

I really do love him...

"I love Ken." I stated.

Erica smiled. "I'm glad."

I nodded at her, smiling back. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Erica replied.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket. There's something I need to do. I called my 'employer', placing the phone to my ear.

"Hello? What is it?" Irene asked from the phone.

"Please let me join..." I stated. "...The Cult Of Loki."