Jaan

Part 40- Family

Finally, I found a couple that were well hidden and immediately decided to test it out.

I took three tests and turned them upside down wanting to surprise myself if it actually turned out to be positive. I counted to three in my head before having a look and it only took a second before I felt like my heart was about to explode from happiness and excitement.

I am pregnant! Ya Allah!! I am pregnant!

Should I tell my family yet?! But, I'd like to make it a bigger surprise. I can't wait to see their reactions. But even more, Aslan's reaction.

Will he be happy? Am I dumb? Of course he will be!

That's it, I'll keep it a secret and surprise them as soon as I'm done preparing it.

Alhamdullilah, what a blessing!

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Aslan's POV.

"We have to go tonight" Miran said.

I was in my seat in my office rubbing my temples. For the first time in my life, I'm feeling something I have never felt before.

I've worked almost my whole life for the mafia. Right, it's not the job any kinds of human would do without hesitating however I always had this sort of pride in me.

I do my work, I somehow help those suffering in silence and make a whole lot of money. My point is, I kind of was glad.

But, now it's different. I'm in love with a woman that has changed my perspective of life.  The more time I spend with her, the more I visualize our future and the more I'm starting to doubt myself.

She never liked what I do and it's obvious. But, she still loves me regardless. And recently, it's been bothering me more than the usual.

Her parents trust and believe in me like their own. I would be damned if they'd ever get to know about what I do. I feel guilty and it makes me upset. I don't want to disappoint them.

I just feel like...I have a family now. People that care for me and that I could always go back to. That's how they make me feel and I don't want to loose them.

"What's tonight?" I asked him as I couldn't remember.

"It's your dad's birthday party tonight" he reminded me.

Oh, so that's what he's talking about. I completely forgot about that.

"He asked you something?" I asked him.

"You know he did so why are you asking" Miran replied.

"Why can't he just contact me instead of passing the word through you all the time?" I asked him annoyed at that.

"Why don't you go and ask him yourself?" he asked me instead as I let out a frustrated sigh.

"Bring Adalina too, I'm sure she'd be really glad to meet your dad" he added before leaving my office.

My dad and I have been in a love hate relationship. I don't hate him. But, I can't stop the traumas on my part from making me feel like shit while being around him for too long.

I wouldn't be a mafia if it wasn't because of him. I would be living a normal life if my mother would still be alive. He knew that mom was against it all. Why'd he took advantage of her death and still did what he wanted?

Why did he almost made me a monster? He gives me everything and then also takes everything from me. Just why?

Now, I feel stuck. I feel like I can't get out of this dark space. I don't want to have to pay any price to have the freedom I deserve. Although, I don't think that will be necessary still, nothing is promised in this world.