It Struck A Heart String With Many (BNHA x OC)

Chapter 18

        What she didn't understand was that Shinsou knew better than anyone the struggle of simply being when everyone thought you were a villain. He was impressed by her ability to exist in a world of people who would condemn her for her existence, anything she did, no matter how simple, was awe-inspiring. Especially after he got a shovel talk from nearly every UA staff member about how much Ishi had gone through and if he did anything to her then getting into the hero course would be the least of his problems.

        All Might who had overheard part of one of the aforementioned shovel talks informed him that he could expose them and sue for ...something... he tended to zone out when All Might talked after he saw him look at Ishi with a little bit of disgust, or maybe contempt in his eye. Shinsou said he deserved the talks and that he was simply glad someone cared enough about Ishi to give them.

        "I'm gonna miss you" Ishi whispered into Tamaki's side.

         Tamaki didn't know how to feel about this, he always missed his friends during extended internships. This felt different. Leaving his friends felt achy like the whole world had been set a little bit to the left and a couple of degrees cooler. The idea of leaving Ishi felt like losing a limb, a part of him that was undeniably his. Like getting an amputation without amnesia, teeth grinding, scream your throat hoarse, suffer an infection for two weeks, never really heal kind of painful. He wasn't sure when she started to matter that much to him, probably from the beginning, from when he saw himself in her and then saw something better than anyone he knew. Something innocent despite hardship, merciful and kind without knowing it. Good because she was born that way, good because she made herself that way, good because she doesn't know how to be anything else. He didn't think anyone could see her and not fall at least a little in love with her. He wasn't sure what he was going to do after internships when she started joining hero classes for 'socialization'. After watching Shinsou he was pretty sure she would have a fan club by the end of the day and a religion by the end of the week.

        All he could say is "I'm going to miss you too" because he knew that anything the rest of his thoughts would be too heavy for her and he didn't want to be a weight she had to carry.

       The next day Ishi couldn't bear going to see Tamaki off at the station, so she set a small picnic basket filled with packaged meals on his desk at 6 am before returning to the apartment building and curling up in bed with #13.

       All of the heroes were sleeping as much as they could, knowing this week would be rough. Simply put, Ishi had attachment issues...technically. It wasn't a phrase any of them liked to use but It mostly explained the situation so it worked. She didn't so much have a hard time trusting or getting attached to new people, as the Shinsou Incident clearly demonstrated. But once she had claimed someone as hers, that's where the trouble began. When they left she tended to spiral, to wonder if she wasn't good enough if she had fooled them into thinking she was someone she wasn't and they finally saw through her charade if they had left for good and weren't coming back. The issue was that she got attached.

       So, when she woke up at 9 am, crying, begging desperately for Tamaki to come back, that she would be a good girl and she wouldn't mess up, that she would do anything, so long as he didn't leave her alone. All the heroes (excepting All Might) geared up and got ready to do everything they could to make her feel appreciated, loved, and part of a family. That she was was good enough and Tamaki would come back and she could go see him whenever she wanted. 

A.N. *peeks out from around the corner* Hi guys, I'm back, kinda. Tbh I pretty much planned on never finishing this, mostly bc it doesn't really have an end destination, my other story "I set the die that day" has a planned ending, it's actually already written I just don't have a middle part between where the story is and that ending. This was mostly an idea and a coping mechanism, so hypothetically it could end whenever but also nothing feels quite right. I started writing this chapter bc I saw a post on tumblr praising abandoned wip fics bc no other thing lets you start writing something and then just stop and continue having it been acknowledged and loved. It made me think about this story and how much I really do love this story bc I wrote it to cope in a time where I felt like I was broken and abandoned and lonely and I needed someone to love me like the UA heroes love Ishi. I have since gotten better, graduated highschool near top of my class, and gotten into a #3 ranked college in my country so I don't need Ishi to cope anymore, but maybe some of you do, maybe some of you need the hug and the affection and love that Ishi gets in this story. So I wanted to keep writing this as a love letter to all the broken people out there like me and like you who need the hug and who are reading this putting themselves in Ishi's shoes I do have lots of issues with bnha as a series and as the problematic fandom I feel it is. But the best (only good) thing about the series is the characters so pretty much abandoning canon completely, lets use these characters to heal and grow <3. I won't have a concrete posting schedule but I will not be abandoning this work it means too much to me for that. I hope you liked this chapter sorry it had like no dialogue and probably has terrible grammar but also I wrote it in like an hour so yeahhh. Have a great day everyone!