Jaan

Part 44- I'm Sorry

I got up from my bed letting my tears come out as they pleased. I made my way out of the room, about to go back down the stairs I stopped as I heard a familiar voice.

"You have to tell her about your dad, Aslan. She deserves to know. Trust in Allah a bit more, would you? I know you get it but now is the time to fully trust in him." Ayla was speaking to someone.

Is she speaking to Aslan? Why can't I hear his voice? Is she on the phone? What happened to his dad?

I took a few more steps, close enough to have a look at the kitchen as I saw Ayla and him.

He was here. It felt like a dream.

I was dumbstruck as I stood there unable to move an inch staring at them.

"I ruined everything. I ruined her life. And now...I have no other way but give up." He sounded heartbroken.

"I didn't tell you about her only for you to give up on her...if she gives up, you at least...have to hold on" she sounded serious. I've never seen her speak this way to anyone before.

"He's going to die. It's the end for me. The end of my happiness...it was going to end some day or the other am I wrong?...I thought I could protect her and be with her till the end but..." he slightly laughed.

Who is going...to die? There's no way...his dad?

"She was right. She always was. I was just hoping for the impossible...I thought I could protect her forever but I was just wrong...he was right...I lost her." He was on the verge of breaking down, I could hear it in his voice.

I quickly made my way to the kitchen as I embraced him into a tight hug. I was longing for his touch.

"I'll be going, take care you guys" Ayla left immediately giving us privacy.

"Just let it out. If you want to cry then do so." I told him.

For the first time, I saw him crying. I have never ever seen him in such a state. It was hard to watch.

Suddenly, he moved away from me breaking the hug.

"You were right. I did some thinking...we should end-"

I got close to him once again grabbing his face making him look at me.

"I know you don't mean it because neither do I. Aslan I...don't think I can do it. I don't think I can keep myself away from like that...can you?" I asked.

"Of course I cannot. You think it's easy for me? It's not. But it doesn't matter anymore because...you were right. This has to end." he said as I was positive now that I was not going to let go of this man.

Now that he was the one pushing me away, I was eager to not let go.

"Aslan...can you please look at me properly and tell me...what happened to you?" I asked him.

He stopped trying to get away from me locking his eyes with mine once again as it felt like time had stopped at this right moment.

"He's leaving me Adalina. He will be gone." he managed to say tears escaping his eyes as I wiped them away.

"No he's not. Your mother never did either. It's just...everyone has their timing, my love. That does not mean that you don't matter to them anymore. It does not mean that they are leaving you." I was trying to comfort him in the best way possible.

"Then...why are you? Why are you trying to leave before your end?" he asked as I shook my head in denial.

"Can you...give me a chance? Please...I was wrong..." I begged.

There's truly a first time for everything. I had never seen this side of him nor had I ever thought I would think about leaving him.

Opening to each other in such a way made me realize that I would never want to loose this man for anything in the world.

Ayla has only reminded us wise and true words. Trust and belief should be placed on the highest, Allah. He can make miracles no one else could ever.

He can change the unchangeable. He is all and more than that.

Knowing that, why do we give up so easily? Why do we break down when it's all planned beforehand? Why?

We spent the rest of the night holding each other. Not letting each other go, holding tight onto each other's pain and sorrow.

I needed him as much as he needed me. How can I ever let go of you? You have become a part of me. I feel incomplete without you.

"I'm sorry. I hurt you." I mumbled while playing with his hair as his head was on my chest and his arms firmly around me.

"I did the same. I was selfish to think that you'll be fine with every flaw of mine. You kept accepting me without saying anything and I just..." he sat properly before grabbing my hands and looking at me.

"From now on, I will straightforward with you...I tried all that I could the past week while I was gone. The world that I work for is something else. They will never risk anything. I might be the leader of my gang but that doesn't matter. I still have to pay the price if I dare to leave the mafia...and that is death. I have to disappear and the only way...is that I give my life or a part of me." He explained as I was finding it hard to process all that.

"You...can't die Aslan" I begged.

"I know and I will try everything not to. For now, it's complicated but I am sure that there is a way out of this. I will have to find the way but...you have to give me some time okay?" He said as I nodded.

"I'll wait for you" I confirmed.

"And...what...about your dad? What happened to him?" I proceeded to ask.

"He's very sick...basically on his death bed. I know I don't talk much about him but...you know I...might not be the type of guy to show care and talk about my feelings at all times but...I love my parents. I always needed them no matter the damage they left in me, I needed them. He's the only one I have left...it's hard for me..." it must be so hard.

"I don't know how that must feel but...I can assure you that they love you so much too. And, I am your family Aslan. You still, and will always have me no matter what." I said from the bottom of my heart.

Both lost into each other's eyes, he gently placed his lips on mine pulling me to him.

I missed this so much. His scent, touch and warmth.

"I love you" I said pulling away seconds later.

"I love you too" he replied connecting his forehead to mine.

I just knew at this moment that I had made the wrong choice and wrong assumptions. This man loves me and I do too. He always wished the best for me and now he is fighting for me.

I will never find better and I could never be more loved than I am right now.

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