More Than Enough || Toru Oikawa X Reader

|81| I'm Okay

"You're so cute," Toru compliments as he leans in to kiss you but you place your hand on his mouth and push him away.

"I may have said I like you kisses last night but right now they're a no-go," you tell him which confused, "Morning breath," you say which he understood. You lower your hand and giggle, "I need to go to the bathroom," you tell him as you were about to get off the bed but stop when you remember that you're wearing no pants.

"What's wrong?" Toru ask with a cheeky smile as he lays back down on the bed with his hand behind his bed while looking at you. Wanting to enjoy the view.

You give him a glare and the next thing you knew, you grab the pillow and hit his face with it which caught him off guard. You then look around to find your PJ pants so you went to grab it and wear it. But as the bathroom is outside of the bedroom, you grab your lazy bra to put on but you felt eyes on you so you turn to look at your boyfriend who quickly looks the other way.

You laugh as you were embarrassed but also because you found him cute, "You're so in love with me aren't you?" you ask which has him looking at you with an expression asking you if that's even a question.

"Are... Are you seriously asking me that?" Toru ask you which made you laugh.

You walk up to him, lean down and peck his lips, "You're right. That's dumb of e to ask when you're clearly madly in love with me," you declare which made him smile.

"As I should be," he says as he grabs you and pulls you back to bed, "I love you so much!" he confesses as cuddle his face to the back of your head. Your hair getting on his face but somehow not making it feel annoying for himself or you.

"No, let me goooooo," you say as you try to get out of his arms.

"Noooooo," he says as he keeps a tight hold of you, "I'm never letting you go," he promises.

You laugh, "Not like that, love. I meant to let me go as I need to go pee," you tell him and that's when he let you go, "Thank you. Now excuse me," you add as you hit his face with your lazy bra gently but get embarrassed when remembering that it's your bra and not something else. Toru chuckles as you walk to your bag to get your toothbrush and just what you need to wash up your face as well as a hairbrush.

Then you quickly exit the room and walk to the bathroom. Once in, you close the bathroom door and lock it. You do your business, wash your hands and then take off Toru's shirt so that you may put on your lazy bra. 

Once you have it on, you put Toru's shirt back on. You unlock to the door and open the bathroom door open just in case someone has to use the bathroom and you can alway step out and continue to brush your teeth while they do their business.

You first bushed your hair and tie it up comfortably. And then you went to brush your teeth. It took a few minutes but when you were all done, you wash your face and then dry it up with a towel.

When that's that, you look at yourself in the mirror. You're not smiling nor do you look happy. Instead, you look tired and just done with everything. You also look a little scared. You don't know how to explain it. 

You'll admit that you're happy with Toru and everyone else. You're having fun and all but once you're alone, it back to just being you and your thoughts which is a scary thing. As you were looking at yourself in the mirror, you notice the scratch marks on your arms and the injury on your hand. They're healing which is good but they're not fully gone. They weren't going to leave any scars so that's good but you can't help but still feel disgusted and dirty with yourself. You hate the way you are.

You hate the way he made you feel. 

You hate the way he hurt you.

You hate the way he hurt them.