my demon enemy ;; minsung

~The end~

I rest in the crook of his neck, crying all the tears that I have in my body, him just hugging me and sometimes giving me soft kisses on the top of my head. Seeing him here, with me, hugging and kissing me again it's just too much.
When I finally stop crying, he cups my cheeks with his hands and looks at me in my eyes.

JS: "Come and say goodbye to me Minho. It's the only way, you know it too"
ME: "I DON'T WANT TO" I say screaming and getting up, looking at him, the tears that threaten to fall again
JS: "You have to" says him calmly getting up "You have to do it for yourself, otherwise you won't make it"

I just watch him, shaking my head defeated.

JS: "Promise me"

I need all the courage and all the strength I have to say the words that faintly come out of my mouth:

ME: "I...I promise"
JS: "I love you Minho" he smiles
ME: "I love you Jisung" I reply

I open my eyes, seeing just the overwhelming darkness of my room. A groan of anger escapes my lips. Why couldn't I stay there with him?!
I sit on the bed, racking my brain with poisonous thoughts. Then suddenly I remember the promise I made. I have to go see him for the last time. I get up quickly, a wild agitation running through me, fully waking me up. I put on a sweatshirt and shoes and leave the apartment.
I run like crazy to the infirmary. Luckily they have decided to leave him there. I enter and immediately go to his room. When I walk in and see him, so ethereal illuminated by the moon, I almost cry again. But no, I think, pushing back the tears, this time I will be stronger.
I take a chair and put it next to his bed, continuing to look at him all the time. Then I speak:

ME: "Hi Jisung" I say, taking his cold hand into mines and leaning closer to him "I came here as I promised you. I came to say goodbye for the last time, like you told me"
"It will be really hard to let you go forever after everything we've been through together. Just think, we started as sworn enemies, and we never thought of becoming what we are now"
"It all started from that damn party, where I realized that I didn't hate you, on the contrary, I realized that I loved you like I've never loved anyone else in the world. Not that I've ever loved anyone. I've always had a reputation as a playboy, hanging out with people just for physical pleasure, that when he gets tired of them, he leaves them, breaking their heart. And you changed me, you showed me that there are other things in life; beautiful, wonderful things"
"You showed me that friendship is one of the most precious things in the world. Having friends ready to die for you, ready to do everything for you, is truly one of the rarest things in this world. And I have them"
"You showed me that love, the real one, is more than just physical. It is also mental, because if you really do love someone, that feeling takes you and tosses you here and there. But knowing that you have someone by your side makes it like a pleasant carousel to ride together" tears now were starting to fall "It almost makes me laugh thinking that at first we were disgusted even just being in the same room, while now I would give my same life to have you again, to hear you laugh again, to see you play with others again, to hold you between my arms again, to kiss you again and knowing that we spent so little time together breaks me, makes me feel so much pain. We were so stupid not to understand our feelings first. So, so stupid"
"I regret all the harm I did to you, all the bad things I said about you, all the wounds I caused you" now tears were falling shamelessly as I was holding onto him for my dear life, now resting my head on his chest "And know that the scar you caused me when we were little that you threw a stone at me, it will no longer be hidden, I will show it to the world, proud to have had you with me, even if for a little while"
"We should have finished school and then moved in together, perhaps with children and animals too, like a dog or a cat. We should have spent a lot more time together. We should have come back from that damn mission all safe and sound. We should have... with all the things we should have done, I could write a book about it. Also two."
"I hate the fact that the Elementals have decided to reincarnate in the two of us. If they hadn't done it, you would now be alive and maybe there would be other people in our place. But, come to think of it, if they hadn't, we might never have realized how we feel about each other. So yes, it was a curse, but it was also a blessing, in a way"
"I don't know if tomorrow I'll be able to resist, seeing you go away forever. I just know that I wish the vision where you appeared to me lasted forever. But now I better go, if I stay here, I could explode. Plus, it's almost time for everyone to wake up and I wouldn't want them to find out I came here even though I shouldn't"
"So, Han Jisung, thank you for all you have done for me, for all you have taught me and for all the good times you have given me. I will never forget them. And I'll never forget you. I will not be with anyone but you, and since this is now impossible, I will remain alone forever, until my time comes, which I look forward to to be able to reunite with you. I can't tell you if I loved you from the first moment I saw you, or if it was the second, the third or the fourth time. I just know that I remember you, after that party, coming towards me smiling, and I realized that the rest of the world seemed to disappear when I was with you"
"I love you Han Jisung, I love you with all of myself"