More Than Enough || Toru Oikawa X Reader

|85| Let's Break Up

But as she's the English teacher and you have knowledge of what she' teaching and with everything that's going on right now, you weren't paying much attention as after you write everything that's on the board, you start to doodle as it was a way to distract you.

You drew what you felt as that's what you do but at the same time, you try to draw some happy and funny things to cheer you up but you're feeling so mixed up that you don't know how to feel.

Your mind is at a war but something felt off.

I can't help but feel like I'm forgetting something... you tell yourself but you just shake it off and look back at your drawing which you were just doing without much thinking to soon realize that it looks familiar... My closet? Not from home but the closet in your room in the home that's in California.

You don't know why you drew that. You look at it confusedly and try to remember the last time you checked the closet in your room back in California but you can't remember a time that you did. And you were the sort of person that doesn't believe there's a monster in the closet. 

You're not scared however, there was something about it that scares you. You don't know why. When was the last time I cleaned inside of it? you wonder but you still can't recall anything. There's no memory. Nothing. 

Toru looks at you, wondering how you're doing and if you were being serious about going back to California, back to Tyler. Was it the fear talking? What about the things you both talk about. The things you both went through together? Toru is trying to convince himself that it's the trauma, that you're just scared but you're here, there's nothing for you to be scared of.

As he looks at you, he notices how confused and in deep thoughts you were but then he saw you look at your hand. You're wearing both of your rings. The couple ring and anxiety. He watches you look at them and gently smile. And the he watches you look back at the board as you play with the anxiety ring.

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"I have a confession to make," Toru tell you as he gets you away from everyone during lunch. Everyone wanted to talk to you and you got anxious. It felt like your heart was going to jump out of your chest but then you realize how amazing your friends are and how they're protecting you.

Now you and Toru are outside, in the field, away from the others. Sitting under a tree, in the shade, side by side. You needed to get away from them so this was nice but after this, it's back to class and you don't want to go back to class, you just want to go home and lay in bed and just stay there...

"Confession? Did you cheat on me?" you ask him with a weak smile as you raise your knees to your chest and hug them, placing the side of your head on it as well.

"No!" Toru says right away and you chuckle.

"I know, just trying to lighten the mood because 'I have a confession to make' almost sounds like a 'we need to talk' and sometimes, they're not good things and right now, I really don't want the tension or just anything that will make me panic or get more anxious than I already am," you say honestly, "And I may sound like a bitch right now but would you mind just jumping straight into the point and not stall?" you ask of him because you seriously can't handle any sort of surprise right now.

"You have every right to ask me to get straight to the point and you're not a bitch for asking that," Toru assures which made you smile softly.

"Going to ask me about the article?" you ask anxiously.

"You already told me about the things you went through. If anything, you're the victim and it's all that bastard fault. He used the people you love and cared for against you. And not to mention that going through all of that can lead you to having depression and anxious and other disorders or illness. Your memory is just a way for you to forget what happened, it was a coping mechanism," Toru says as he doesn't want you to feel bad about anything as none of it was your fault.