But what if it's meant to be? (Calzona)

Chapter 72

"I'm sorry" I sniffle and she kisses my head

"No.. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get upset I was just worried" she tells me

"I didn't mean to push you away. You make me feel safe and I knew I would cry if I was with you and I don't want to cry anymore" I admit and I heard her sigh

"I understand... but it's not good to keep it bottled up. So if you want to, or need to cry it's okay, and if not  I'll be here just to hold you" she says and I felt a few Tears fall down my cheeks but I quickly wiped them off

"I love you" I state and close my eyes

"I love you too"

—-

A few hours later mom and Callie had made dinner, Amara could stay for dinner but Ada said she had to go home tonight.

"You guys want to eat out here with us or in here?" Mom asked coming into my room

"In here" I say quickly, knowing that if I was in the kitchen she would just look at me with pity in her eyes when I don't eat

"Okay" she smiles and walks out and back in a few minutes later with two plates

"You need to eat" she whispers and I sigh, knowing that I won't but I nod to make her feel better and she kisses my head and walks out,

Amara began to eat while I just pushed the food around the plate

"Jess" she says and I look up at her and she brings her fork to my mouth

"Baby I'm not hungry" I say and she doesn't Budge

"For me? Please" she says and I sigh and allow her to feed me and she smiles contently and alternates between feeding herself and me

"You don't have to feed me" I mumble and she smiles

"Are you going to eat on your own?" She ask and smirks when I don't respond

"Thats want I thought" she says and I roll my eyes playfully

"Okay.... Now I really am full" I say and she nods and takes the plates out to the kitchen and comes back to lay with me

"When are you leaving?" I ask and she runs her fingers through my hair

"Mom is on her way" she says and I frown

"I know... but I can stay tomorrow if that's okay with you and your mom" she says and I nod, knowing mom would be okay with it

"Okay... I'll come over after lunch" she says and I smile and kiss the base of her neck and lay my head against it

"I love you" I say and look up at her and she presses her lips against mine

"I love you more"

—

Amara just left and now it was time for me to talk to Callie and Arizona. I was nervous, I didn't know how they would react honestly

I walked into the living room and they were cuddled up with each other

"What's up love?" Mom asked and paused her movie

"Um... well I was thinking and I know it's probably too late but um.. can we still move back to Seattle?" I ask and play with my fingers in my lap

"You want to go back to Seattle?" Callie ask and I nod

"Why?" Mom ask and I sigh

"I just do." I reply

"What about Amara?" She ask me

"We can take her with us?" I say seriously

"We can't exactly kidnap your girlfriend" she says and I nod

"I know... but I really want to go back to Seattle... being here reminds me too much of Alex and all the memories we had" I admit and they look between each other

"I know you're upset, but you can't decided something this big while you are upset" Arizona says

"But it's not just me being upset. I- the only reason I wanted to stay in the first place was because of Amara and Alex.... Alex is dead. Amara is amazing and I can call her all the time and hopefully on breaks we can see each other" I say and they don't respond

"I want to be close to my family. Aria, Mateo, April, mark, grandma, grandpa. Please can you at least think about it" I plead and Arizona sighs and nods

"We will talk about it but Jess, I don't want you getting your hopes up" she says and I nod and stand up to go back to my room

"Wait, come here" she says and I walk over to her and she reaches out to hug me and kiss my head

"I am very very proud of you for eating" she says and I blush

"I love you" she smiles

"I love you too mom"

Till next time ❤️