My Love, Is you

Loss love

Neil Gulf

I'm here now with my old friends after I left home. After I saw him making out with he so called business partner. Funny right I use to believe with his lies. Before tonight I also see them at the restaurant last three days ago. Having bar happening. One of my friends from the past is calling me to see if the person is right.

My tears is running down to my face. The pain is much to handle and the shaking of my body I can't stop it. I quickly run out of the place.

Now I'm with Jazz Scott he is one of my best friend. A friend that I can comfortably bagging in all time. He look at me like his little brother. He is my protector.

I'm in the bar own by jazz since the time I learn about the affair of my man to the woman name Jessica. I sleep here in four nights with my friends. They never leave me alone. I let all my heart ached and cry until I feel my heart felt a bit of lightness.

Now I'm here in the in the ground I want to lost my self by driving this car. I want to focus on the road and don't want to think about the man that hurt me the most. If I'm on the school I focus on my academics to escape from the pain. In fast week start to come back this place. I gain back my courage to do it back.

The day after I left home. I go to school and do the same thing to forgot my pain. Focus on studies and go back to the bar where I stay, but that day the man that I don't want to see is waiting for me at the parking area. He try to catch me and call me but I never bother. I jump on the car and drive it away. He followed me at the road, in the end I lost my and continue my way.

Luis Mew

It was going to be four days since the last time I saw him at school. I'm trying hard to catch him. But after that incident I saw him at the parking area I never see his car again. I don't know how he hide but I never stop on looking for him.

I go to faith in third times even I begging her to help me I well do. For to find him and bring him back to my arms.

"faith. Please did you know where is gulf. I know that he contacted you please till me.... I'm begging you faith please.... I'm going to be crazy if I can't find him son." I cry out hard. And I never expected her words to me.

"wow you begging now he is gone. Where are you when my best friend is here. The time that he waited you home. Your there busy with the girl do you really think that I give to you where he is now... No way mew... He is the one who saw you last 5 nights ago. And the two other night with that girl, do you really think he is stupid. Just that accepting the fact that you always busy, until weekend. Fuck your self. I never give you where he is... Get out of my house... Go away before I kill you. Because if there is bad happin to him again like before....hmmmm.... Because right now he's on the car, I well gonna borne you a live remember this." She said furiously.

"what you mean faith.. Please till what his doing.? Please I do everything to bring him back please...." I beg.

"you don't know anything about his past... He is not a person with words if he has a problem.... He drives like a devil to release his pain... And last time he did that he almost die because of the accident reasons why his parents bring him back to Thailand. So now if there is something happened to him I'm not sure what I well do to you. I'm right in my first day I saw you that I can't trust you, not hurting him. Now get out of my sight.....out......" and she push me out of the house.

My knees is now so lame. I need to find him now before anything happens. It is my fault it is mine... I cry so hard. I'm on the situation that I don't know what to do.

And my phone is ringing. I nervously look at it. I saw the caller ID. Gulf mom... is in the other line.

"hello mom. How are you?" I ask.

"mew where is my son. Faith is calling me that you looking my son to her. What happen?" she ask me. From her voice I know that she knows that her son is loss. What I afraid so much now is she trust me, but I failed her expectations on me to protect and to care her wonderful son..

"mom... Sorry I know I did this mess. He run away from me. But promise I do my best to bring him back home safe."

"I trust you Mr. Garcia. But you failed me. Make sure you bring my son back safely. Before any bad thing happened to him. Because I am not sure what I can do to you. And don't expect me to be on your side or give you a chance to hurt him again."

Her words like a arrow dag on my heart. Lossing mom trust is so kind of lossing him forever. Because I know Neil Gulf is always follow his mother words.

"I promise mom. I bring him back..."

"don't make a promise. Do it. Because your promise is not worthy right now after what you did." and she end the call.

Now I'm here leaving like a hill. All I know is I need to find him as soon as possible. I don't know who is his other friends.

I call one of my friends here that had some connections. His ability of finding someone is great. He is the only person I know that can help me. I ring his phone in three the person pick up my call.

"hello. Mew what's up"

"yes bro. Here not good. You how are you? " I answer and ask him back.

" oh I'm fine dude. What I can help you? In the sound of your voice something is come."

" Yes I had something to ask you....dude my wife is gone,,, I don't know where he is. Please bro help me i know you had a great connection here. I really don't know where to find him now. His two friend I know they never give any information where I can found him." Lorenz Mathew  is one of my close friend here. He was close to me for more than twenty years. He is former US navy and private investigator. And now he owns and manages his guard business. He provides great buddy guard in the country. Even our company get there service for the hotel safety.

He is my only way to find you.