This Was A Mistake | Mattheo Riddle X Reader

chapter 21

I realized how dumb this whole thing was.

Why did I care so much?

Was it something else that made me take my anger out on Pansy this much?

Was it my feelings I was trying to shove down? Was it my parents? Was it Draco? Was it Meredith?

All I wanted to do was see Mattheo.

I looked at the dried up scar he carved on my thigh in the mirror.

'MR'

Hm.

It was small so it wasn't super noticeable, it did burn a lot sometimes.

Summer break was now about two months away. It was May, him and I had still been going on.

At this point, it's not even about Draco anymore.

Was he still doing this because of Draco?

If we did really date, how would I tell my friends? Is that even possible?

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We all decided to go to the courtyard and sit by the tree in front of the black lake.

This time, Hermione joined us.

We all were getting along really well.

Enzo seemed to be over her but not completely. I think he accepted that she liked girls but not that he was over her.

It took me a bit before I fully completely moved on from Draco. When I first started 'dating' Mattheo, it went didn't go away.

I hated Draco, but the smallest part of me cared for him.

There's no way I'm going back to that, Im completely hung up on Mattheo. He's all I ever think about now.

"Daphne..?"

"Hm?"

"I have to tell you something. I've kept it a secret for so long and I don't know who to tell. I'm so scared you guys will be so mad at me." I lowered my voice.

I only wanted Daphne to know. I don't even know why I was about to tell her.

"I won't be mad at you. Just tell me." She smiled.

"I think I have feelings Mattheo.."I said, my voice filled with guilt. Guilt for falling in love with the boy I was meant to hate, the son of the dark lord.

"Oh- I mean-" she paused for a few seconds. She looked like she was trying to find the right words to say everything.

"Aren't you guys supposed to be like...enemies?" She whispered.

"Yes. I know it'd never work out. But I feel like...like I might..love him? I only ever felt this way with Draco, Daphne."

"I wasn't really serious when I said I'd be mad at you for it, but Maya..what if he hurts you? Or kills you? Or his father? What do you think his father will do when he finds out?" Her eyes widened as each question came out of her mouth, "I'm scared for you love." She said.

"That's the thing. He wouldn't. Something just tells me. He'd protect me no matter what. I know he would." I said.

"I've had sex with him. A lot..." I added on, a smile crept on my face.

"You what??" She said loudly, her jaw dropped. Everyone looked at us. "Keep your damn voice down." I scolded her. "Well- How was it??" She lowered her voice again.

"What are you two on about?" Adrian said as he kissed Daphnes cheek.

"Me and Maya...are having girl talk." She said.