Unbroken || Dan Howell x reader

Chapter 14

"Hey, we don't want you out of our lives. And you know he didn't mean any of what he said that night. He was hurt and upset, he just acted without thinking." Phil looked at me.

"Why are you trying to defend him?" I turned and stared at him, waiting for a response.

"I-I'm not defending what he did... but he's my friend, so..." He trailed off.

"So you mean to tell me, if you saw the person you loved making out with someone other than you, you wouldn't be the least bit upset?!" I questioned him. He didn't say anything, just looked down into his lap. He had a sad look on his face.

"I-I'm sorry Phil. I didn't mean to yell." I leaned down and covered my face with my hands.

"Don't worry about it." He patted me on the back lightly, then stood up to leave. When he got to the door, he turned and looked at me.
"Don't stay inside all day, okay?" He said to me, a concerned look on his face. When I didn't answer, he turned on his heel and closed the door lightly behind him.

The rest of that day, I didn't know what to do with myself, when I wasn't crying of course. I sat on the couch, not doing anything but stare at the wall.

'I wonder what Dans doing right now.' I was thinking to myself. 'Wait, no. I shouldn't care what he's doing. Stop thinking about him (y/n).'

I couldn't keep thinking about him so much, so I decided to curl up on the couch and go to sleep.

It must've been 10 minutes before I was woken up by the buzzer, signalling that I had mail. I groaned and got up.

I got down to the last flight of stairs when I saw Dan at the mailboxes. He must've heard the stairs creaking, he turned and looked up at me.

"Oh, I can come back later." I turned around and started to walk back upstairs.

"(Y/n), wait!" Dan called up, and ran up the stairs behind me. "Just let me explain." He grabbed my arm, but I pulled it away from his grasp.

He looked at me, then took a step back.
"Can we go into your apartment? I don't think the neighbors would like to hear our conversation." He tried to be funny, but I didn't laugh. We silently walked up to my apartment.

I opened the door and Dan came in behind me. I walked a few steps then turned around to face Dan. He closed the door then faced me. I stared at him.
"I just wanted to talk." He put his hands in his pockets.

"There's nothing to talk about." I crossed my arms and looked down at the ground.

"(Y/n), I-I didn't mean to hurt you... I was just upset and confused... I didn't know what I was doing...." He trailed off.

"You knew exactly what you were doing Dan. And instead of coming to talk to me to see what was going on like a normal person, you acted like a spoiled teenager and went to go makeout with some random girl, as if that would solve anything." I tried my hardest to keep back tears, but they just came out.

Dan took a step towards me, but I stepped back.
There was a moment of silence before he said anything.

"....When I saw you on the road, unconscious and covered in blood.." He choked on his words a little. "... I didn't know what to do... I knew I fucked up. I blamed myself, and I still do. All of this is my fault.... I should've talked to you. I wanted you to get your memory back. I missed spending time with you, just the two of us, but I never wanted you to remember this...."

I could see the sadness in his eyes. I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I couldn't. I couldn't trust him. Not anymore.

"What would you have done if I didn't find you? Would you have told me about her or just left me clueless?" I didn't bother wiping away the tears anymore. Dan didn't answer.

"(Y/n), I'm so sorry..." He looked up at me.

"Sorry you kissed her, or sorry you got caught?"

He opened his mouth to speak, but quickly shut it.
"That's what I thought..." I pushed my (h/l) hair out of my face and looked up at him. I could see he was trying not to cry.

"I think you should go." My voice cracked a little.
"But..-"
"No, please just go." I cut him off, and lifted my hand up to my face, rubbing my eyes. I was practically sobbing now.

He turned away from me and reached for the doorknob. He slowly opened the door, then walked out, leaving me alone in my apartment.

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Heeeeeey! Sorry I didn't update yesterday, I was being forced to be social with my family ;-; 1k reads tho, ima cry ;0; are you guys really enjoying this piece 'a' shit?

Thanks for reading <3

~breanna