A Shot In The Heart : Chaos

It was late into the night, you had still trained with Hux until then and fell down into your bed. You tried to stay alert to suspicious sounds, but it was impossible with all the hustle from Kylo Ren returning and the Knights of Ren preparing to go outside again.
"Okay. Take some rest and I will come back in the morning like nothing happened" Ren's robotic voice said and he gently touched your cheek before leaving you in your room. "Good luck on the mission!" you called out and close the door, the smile immediately falling off of your face. "Ugh, I seriously can't stand this act any longer, now that I know I might be leaving soon" you groan and let yourself fall onto your bed. A slight mistake, because your eyes immediately start closing and you drift off into sleep.

Frantic bangs at your door. Someone shouting your name. You jump up from the bed, but immediately drop down again as you are met with a headache and your vision fading away. "Fuck, not now" you curse and press onto your forehead, holding yourself up with the other hand. As quick as you can you stumble towards the door, typing in the code. The door slides open, revealing him standing in front of you. His dark, curled hair falling messily into his slightly dirty face. His glistening eyes, with heavy eyebags under them. His lips were dry and chapped, his beard not shaved for a long time. But the emotion in his face was nothing less than pure joy.
"I waited for this so long" he whispers, grabbing your face and pressing his lips against yours. Your tears mix as you hug each other tightly. You were too shocked and relieved to say a word, just melting into his scent for the first time in months. "You look so tired, have you been well?" you ask, inspecting his worn out features. "Excuse me? You were the one stuck with the Supreme Leader. I only missed you in the meantime" he smiled and wiped your tears. "Let's finally get out of here. Rey and Finn are taking care of the other side of the hallway, with Chewie." "Wait!" you say and take his blaster, putting it into stun mode. "Sounds crazy, but don't kill the Troopers. They've done nothing wrong, it's the ones controlling them. If you shoot them, you might kill someone like Finn" you explain and hand it back. Poe smiles and you scoot along the way, unnoticed.
Once you meet Finn and Chewie, Rey is still off- apparently searching for some kind of dagger. "Where are we going?" you ask, checking your own blaster you stole from the training room a long time ago. "Our ship. Straight away!" Finn says and moves on, but Stormtroopers come along the way. "Finn! Put your gun in Stunt Mode!" you scream as he shoots one of the Stormtroopers, he falls to the ground dead. "You should know it best!" you accuse him and let the men fight, carrying off the Stormtrooper to a safe place. You still take his blaster with a small apology, sliding it over to Chewie so he can also defend himself better.
"Faster, Come on!" Poe orders and you move along further, down another hallway. The Stormtroopers become more and more, until a weird clearing leaves you worried. Poe takes the first steps in, but something feels off. Suddenly, his body jerks up and he falls to the ground. "Poe!" you shriek and run over to him, checking his shoulder. "Are you okay? Poe?" "Not really" he mumbles, looking away from you. You follow his gaze, looking right into the eyes of a Stormtrooper you always used to eat breakfast with. His blaster was shaking, pointing at your heart. A soft smile plasters your face. "Don't feel guilty, K-220. It's not your fault" you say to him, only so he can hear it in his mind. More Stormtroopers surround you, most of their attention on you, the traitor.
K-220 pulls you from Poe and you're forced to let go of his hand, lead to the interrogation rooms. Restraints are put on everyone, hands bound.

All of you line up in a straight row, one Stormtrooper each pointing at your heads. You gulp and look at Poe, who's staring straight ahead. But he couldn't fool you, as you sense his fast heartbeat and worried thoughts.
"Actually" someone says, whose voice you recognize immediately. "I'd like to do this myself." Poe looks over at Finn for a second, then asks: "What were you gonna tell Rey before?"
"You still on that?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. Is this a bad time?"
"I'm also confused, Chewie" you say, Chewie groaning along.
"Yeah, it sorta is a bad time, Poe."
"Well, 'cause later doesn't look like an option- If you're gonna let something off your chest, maybe now's not the worst time to-"
"Do it now, Hux!" you say and the others duck their heads, but Hux shoots the Stormtroopers instead. "I'm the spy" he says and puts down the weapon shortly, removing your restraints first. You fall into his arms, thanking him over and over again, but he pushes you off. "Hey, I haven't finished it yet... Who knows?" he teases and you laugh, disabling Poe's restraints. "You know this guy? General Hux? The spy?" he asks, half enraged, half amused. "He helped me stay alive more than food, if you need an explanation. You easily get attached when you're the only ones sharing something" you answer, wiping your sweaty hands on your pants. "I knew it!" Poe shouts. "No you didn't" Finn says, shaking his wrists loose. "Come on, we don't have much time!" Hux orders and leads the way out, running so fast you had to sprint to keep up.

"BB-8! C3PO!" Poe shouts and you turn, looking for the droids. BB-8 rushes over to you and lift him up in the air, holding him like a baby. "Gosh, BB-8, I missed you the absolute most!" you laugh, kissing the top of the droid. "Hey! I feel under appreciated" Poe complains and you also give him a peck on the cheek as a compensation, which he seems more happy about. "I'll shut down the impeders. You've got seconds!" Hux orders, opening the door for you.
"There she is! She's a survivor" Poe says. "Are you not coming with us?" you ask, just as you were about to pass the General. "They'll know what you are." "I don't think I can" he says, looking out onto the Falcon. "It's so close, Hux. Take the chance. With us. With me" you try and hold out your hand. "Alright" he smiles and closes the door behind you all.
Quickly you get into the Falcon and steer towards where Rey was already waiting on you alone. You get out of the Falcon and help her get in. Just as you are about to take off, something pulls you back into the hangar, forcing you down onto the landing platform. You roll across the floor and push yourself up again, only to met with a gloved hand pulling you up by your collar again. "How dare you? How dare you leave me? After everything? All I've done for you? I long for you. I live for you. You are what keeps me going, the bane of my existence! Why can't you ever be grateful!?" Ren yells at your face and you are forced to watch, unable to move your eyes as you see the broken, scared, small boy within him. His mask was on the ground. "Ben" you say, now speaking directly to him. "You don't need my love to be who you're supposed to be. I can't love you like this, not when you're hurting me and others." "Don't do that ever again" Ren says and his eyes are fully black now, not a touch of light in them. You fall to your knees.
"TRAITOR!" he screams, this time definitely directed at you, and you only. You can't tell if he was only feeling hate, but it definitely seems like it. You push yourself further away from him as he takes out his lightsaber, reaching out to slice you. As the blade rushes down, you pull to the side with a scream of surprise. The blade has cut your hair, leaving some of it slightly singed. He lunges again, this time hitting your thigh. Another, this time painful scream escapes your lips, tears forming in your eyes as your flesh is cut and burned. You hold onto the flesh wound and use your other leg to push yourself away from the man. "Please" you shiver, feeling helpless in the big room, no walls near you, no one. "Please, don't hurt me, Ren. Please." In a last attempt of defence, you put up your arms. For a split second, Ren lowers the saber and his features soften. He stares at his hands and you in shock, then runs off.

Poe kneels down next to you, holding your shaking hands. But it's not enough, you grasp onto him. He was your lifeboat. He was the cliffs against the harsh waves. He was as solid as a rock. He was a tower standing during an earthquake. He was the one you could rely on. "Don't leave me again" you whisper and he nods. "Same goes for you. Let's expand our promise, hm?" "I agree" you sniffle and touch your singed hair, letting it slip through your fingers.
"Are you alright? Did he do something to you?" Hux inspects you, making sure you're not badly hurt.
"They're doing fine, Hux. Get back to the ship" Poe hisses at him, helping you up and carrying you to the Falcon.
There, you lay down and try to rest, looking at your hand and turning it in the air out of boredom. Hux walks in, and you try to push yourself up, but he stops you. "No, stay down! I'm sitting down with you. The four are currently steering the ship and stuff, so I thought I'd be more useful over here, checking on you" he says and chews on his lip awkwardly. "What's your name?" you ask, breaking the silence whilst looking at him. "My name? It's Hux."
"No, your first name. Real name."
"Oh... well that is Armitage. Armitage Hux."
"Nice to have met you, Armitage" you smile and lay your head back down, suddenly taken over by tiredness. "I'll head for the bathroom and leave you to sleep" Armitage whispers, more to himself than you. Following his words you feel a warm coat cover you as well, helping you fall asleep faster and more comfortably than before.