Through the window

Nineteen

I never even imagined me being okay with my sexuality, because I sure know my father wouldn't be. It's not like I wanted to hide it forever but I didn't think I had a choice, but then I met Milo and our other friends.

And they made me think that I can have my own life, not just a life my father wanted me to have. Because now I have friends- which is also another thing I never thought I would have.

And now I'm going on a date, and with Milo no less. Milo who is always cheerful and grins with a big stupid smile that crinkles his eyes and creases his forehead. The one who always is so observant he can read you like a book, which is unnerving but it just means he's paying attention.

I didn't even noticed I've picked up so much about him, from the way he drives with one hand on the rolled down window at all times. Who runs like he's being changed by wasps, who randomly sings out of no where and not even realising it.

It's crazy how much I've noticed about him without me even noticing it. But I have, because I like him. Like a friend yes- which took me forever to figure out. But I'm pretty sure i like him more than a friend way now, which is obviously why I'm going on this date with him.

I probably always have liked him, maybe that's why I hated the thought of being his friend, just his friend.

I shiver in disgust, grossed out by my own sweet thoughts. I've never say anything as nice or cute as that before, I haven't realised how much I've changed. In such a short amount of time.

He rips my blindfold off and I blink a bit, getting used to the sun. It's quite warm today, not a cloud in the sky but the sun shines bright from way up.

I look to him in question but he rolls his eyes, he points with his head in front of us and I look.

There's a picnic table cloth, a red and white one in the middle of the bright green grass. A basket lays upon in and there are a few fake candles and flowers on the cloth. I laugh in surprise at that, considering it is no where near dark or needing candles but there are some anyway.

I turn to Milo who smiles at me and holds out a hand, I take it.

"I'm sorry it's nothing amazing, I only had a day to plan it and I wanted to go somewhere private. So you'd be comfortable" i smile at that, he thinks of everything.

And I'm glad because there's no way I could go out in town and just go on a date with Milo. My father or his friends could see and that wouldn't go over too well.

He takes me to the blanket and sits down, I sit in front of him with crossed legs and he spreads his out.

"Strawberry?" I let a small laugh slip out of my mouth as he picks up a bowl of strawberries, I nod taking one and biting into it. I look around the scenery, seeing that he placed us in a perfect spot.

It's right next to a small lake which the sun bouces off of, there are tiny ripples ever so often. Probably fish swimming aorund, it's clear enough to see at the bottom of the lake. The bright blue sky is clear with no clouds, hinting there will be no rain.

It's a nice setting, and quite thoughtful of Milo. To prepare all of this. When he asked me out it was so sudden and I thought he'd throw something together quickly, like a movie at his house.

Course I don't know how dating goes since I've never been on a date before, but this is nice.

"My dad used to like trips out with the family like this, go somewhere far out and explore the nature. He loved the outside world" I smile at that, happy that he's comfortable talking about his father with me.

Glad he trusts me.

"That's nice, did you go to a lot of places with him?" Milo nods, taking a strawberry.