Make me Better ~Eddie Munson x Reader~

16. Completely used

"But I knew... I knew that he liked Chrissy. He always looked at her with eyes that he did not look at me with. He cared for her in ways that I never experienced myself." I shook my head as a fake smile appeared on my face, realizing how stupid I was this whole time. "I thought I had a chance... but he used me." I said to him and he seemed interested at that and fixed his posture on the van as he threw the filter of the cigarette on the street.

"What do you mean he used you?" His frown was apparent and I bit my lip, looking at him. Now that's a truth I can't tell him. I can't tell him that he used me in order to destroy his life. I can't tell him that I faked so many things in our earlier encounters just to get some secret out of his mouth. I shook my head and looked down towards the floor.

"Today... I heard him and Chrissy in the girl's dressing room..." I took a deep breath in. "Moaning." And I looked at his face and his eyes widened. His curls shook as he grabbed another cigarette from his box and I finished mine, throwing it to the ground.

"So you mean to tell me, Carver used you for sex, while he fucked Chrissy behind your back?" Ouch... that hurt. But it's better than the actual truth of the matter, so I nodded. "What a fucking asshole." I chuckled and nodded, feeling the pressure on my chest becoming heavier. I felt my eyes glisten as I stared down onto his shoes.

"It hurt." I told him and he looked at me with worried eyes.

"What do you mean it hurt? He hurt you when you had sex?" He asked me and embarrassment started to fill me up. I gulped and drew circles on my thigh as I continued.

"He didn't... prepare me or anything, just... went with it... I just..." God, I'm so weak at this moment, and it's always with Eddie. I looked up at him. "I just didn't think my first time would be like that." I said to him and he just stared at me, bewildered at my confession. He fidgeted around as a confused frown was plastered on his face.

"Wait, hold on, you mean to tell me, that the Queen Bee, the hottest and most desirable chick at school, lost her virginity a fucking week ago?" He asked me and I blushed slightly and slowly nodded my head. He ran a hand through his hair and slumped on the hood of his car again. "How do I know you're not bullshitting me?" He asked and I took a slightly offense to that.

"Why would I bullshit you with that Munson?" I asked him and he shrugged at me, his voice showing how surprised he was at this.

"Darling, you were known for being with tons of guys, how could that be fake?" He asked me and I frowned, completely offended by that, but I knew what the rumors said about me...

"I took advantage of that." I said to him and he blinked trying to understand my thinking. I sighed. "A virgin wouldn't be popular. Now, a chick that fucked every single member from the team next door, that's a whole other perspective. You become wanted, you become sexier, you become bold." I explained to him and he stared at me as if I were crazy.

"So, I've been calling you slut, cum waste, and all that shit, and you took it?" He asked, anger filling my chest as I remembered how insulting he was towards me through the years, not that I was any better. His face then softened and stared at me. "And he did not take care of you? Why didn't you tell him it was your first time?" He asked me and I gulped.

"Because... he knew... I mean, what else would he use me for?" I lied to him, feeling a slight sting of guilt in my core. I saw him stare at me, with a look that I never thought I would receive ever. He was looking at me with kindness in his eyes, as if he was sorry for what happened to me, and my knees slightly shook at the sight.

"Sorry Princess... Your first time should never be like that." I stared at him as smoked the cigarette from his lips. My thoughts started going wild as his hands ran down towards his front pockets, putting them inside. I blinked and then nodded.

"Yeah... Well, it's done... It's something I'll regret forever, but at least I am officially not a virgin anymore." I said to him with a slight smile on my face and he laughed at me, showing off his dimples, getting hold of his cigarette again. I looked down, trying to avoid looking at his smile. I don't know why I feel like this around him, I feel fidgety, I have to change the subject. "So, senior bonfire night... You going?" I asked him and he nodded, looking at me.

"Down by Lovers lake. Yeah, the principal asked us to play a song or two that night." He said to me and my eyes widened slightly at that.

"What? I'm going to listen to you play?" I asked with a smile on my face and I saw his face twitch as he looked at me and slowly a smile creeped in.

"Yeah. Corroded Coffin will play that night." He said, and for some reason my excitement grew slightly. I never thought I would hear him play, but I wondered how those hands of his looked wrapped around a guitar. "It will be the most metal shit ever." He said to me and that excited me even more, but I can't show him that I know that genre very well.

"Oh, do you take requests?" I asked and he chuckled and shook his head at me.

"Hell no, I am not playing any Queen, or Beatles." He joked around and I forgot about my anger, my sadness, how bad I was feeling at the moment as I laughed along with him. Everything just vanished, by this simple conversation.

Why would Jason want to hurt someone like Eddie?

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End of chapter 16