wowie . jschlatt

twenty nine

"You don't need to do-" I cut her off again.

"You need to eat Min, come on" I grab her hand and help her off the bed, she stumbles and I laugh. "Did you forget how to walk in those past two days?"

"Shut the fuck up, my dad's dead and I'd like to grieve without insults" she huffs, subtly hugging my waist.

"Fine, what do you have in your fridge" I ask as I walk out of the bedroom, practically dragging her with me.

"I don't know, I haven't opened it in two days"

I roll my eyes. "Right, I forgot" I go into the kitchen and open the fridge, one hand on the door and the other on one of her arms wrapped around me. "Min...half of this has gone bad" I take out some yogurt. "This expired a week ago!"

"I was still eating it" Min let's go of me and grabs the yogurt.

"No! You're not eating that" I take I back from her, grabbing all the small yogurt cups and tossing it in the trash. I close her fridge and open the freezer. "I'll make some uh, why the hell is there a sock in your freezer?" I grab the sock and toss it out.

"To keep my feet cool"

"Oh fucking god, you're so messy." I take out a pizza. "I'm making you a pizza, go watch TV or something." I wave her off. "I'll be over in a few minutes"

"Fine" she huffs and walks into the living room. "I HAVE THE BEST IDEA!"

"Um, what is it?"

"We can watch Home!" I could hear the happiness in her voice. I really hope this is distracting her from her dad's death.

After putting the pizza in the oven I walk into the living room and sit down next to her on the couch. "Oh, this movie?" I look at the TV with knitted eyebrows.

"It's so sad! Do you know what happens?" Min turns to look at me.

"Uh, the purple guy kills everyone?" I shrug.

"No, it's- you just have to watch it" she shakes her head and clicks play.

As the movie plays I sat thinking about how I almost kissed her. She didn't pull away but she wanted to forget it ever happened, maybe I should forget it happened too.

"Oh- wait. I promised Ted I'd call him, I'll be right back" I get up and walk to the kitchen, it wasn't far from her so I had to be quiet; hopefully the movie silenced me. I take my phone out and place it next to my ear.

"So is she safe?" I see he was expecting the call.

"...yeah, she's been really down for the past two days because her dad died. Also that dick Devin showed up and assaulted her...I'm gonna fucking kill him if I ever see him again..." I whisper into the phone.

"Woah, don't need to go that far. Maybe just tell the cops?" Ted suggests.

"...well I don't know anything about him, all I know is he's a fucking dick and I hate him..."

"-and that you're extremely jealous of him" Ted adds.

"Shut up Ted" I scoff. "...oh and..." I glance back at Min and see her watching the movie with a smile, I smile but then sigh and drop it. "...I-I almost kissed her again Ted..."

"Just kiss her already!" Ted yells.

"...Ted you don't understand, last time it wasn't as close...this time I was basically sharing the same breath as her..." I hold my phone tightly with both my hands.

"Okay Schlatt" He mumbles. "I don't have any advice for you-"

"...I don't need your advice." I huff. "...I just, don't think I should love her...I need to stop thinking about her..."

"Schlatt. Don't do that." Ted sounded serious. "I know you're gonna start ignoring her, then she's gonna think she did something wrong and your gonna lash out on her"

"...no I'm not." I shake my head.  "Look, Ted I don't know what your talking about but I'm gonna go watch a movie and eat some pizza. Bye..." I take the phone away from my ear and hang up before he can say anything else.

I place my phone in my pocket and then drop my hands at my sides. I smile at Min as she continues to watch the movie, I shut my eyes and pinch the bridge of my nose. I had to stop smiling at her like that.

The oven beeps making me jump, I scramble to get an oven mitt and take the pizza out of the oven. After putting it back on the cardboard I bring it out to the living room and place it on the coffee table.

"Thanks J"

Fuck, why was that nickname making me so flustered now?

"No-No problem"

What if Ted was right? Should I ignore my feelings or not?

You know what? Fuck Ted. Fuck feelings. I can't love Min like that, I already had a chance and fucking ruined it.

To bad, so sad.