hanafuda ? ? ??? k. izana x reader

[36] RINDOU [36]

i walked back into the room after a long day of training... man i could really need some sleep.

"i'm back, did you miss me?" i smiled at rindou who was sitting on the couch, hoping for him to be in a better mood.

he looked over at me, i tensed up "whoa... what happened to you, your eyes are completely red?"

his eyes were really, really red. that did not look healthy at all.

"it's nothing... i just didn't get sleep"

— now —

i see.

y/n told me about rindou being in debt..

rindou's argument with y/n bothered him so much that he got onto drugs... he wasn't able to pay off them all and got himself killed.

i should've payed more attention to him. i should've helped my little brother... but instead i decided to fuck the girl he liked.

— flashback —

"You're worried about her, aren't you?" Ran was suddenly standing on front of me.

"Well yea.. are you not?" "Of course I am too, but..." he sat down next to me "You're very worried about her.. you went far enough to punch Izana"

I stared back down onto the floor.

"I think I know exactly what your problem is" I looked up at him "Rindou... you..."

"... you're in love with y/n!"

he looked back at me in surprise "huh.... i don't even know what love means" "yea, she's your first love!"

he punched my shoulder "stop it! that's not even possible... plus, izana obviously likes her, that would be so complicated..."

— now —

— y/n's pov —

i still can't believe rindou died. ever since that night i can't stop thinking about him. i can't stop thinking about the hole in his head... and i can't stop thinking about how guilty i feel because i wasn't able to fully make up with him.

it hasn't been the same since rindou distanced himself... and it will never be the same again knowing that he's dead, it can't be real..

rindou was like these characters in a show that are always around... the characters no one even thinks of that they could die and they never do.

i've had a weird feeling ever since rindou died. i can't imagine to continue living while he's just dead... but not because i am having suicidal thoughts.

i'm just having a bad feeling... as if my life is just a story, and the story is coming to an end... that's the weird feeling.

i was pulled out of my thoughts when my door opened, ran and izana walked in.

"i just got the anatomy report.." i looked up at ran in surprise.