hanafuda ? ? ??? k. izana x reader

[36] RINDOU [36]

"they said rindou was on drugs.. a lot of drugs" "on drugs?... rindou wasn't the type to do drugs..."

"i think he got in debt because of the drugs... i think you guys fighting really bothered him-"

his words made a horrible feeling appear in my stomach... like actually.

i felt like throwing up right now and-

i rushed into the bathroom as fast as i could and as soon as my head was above the toilet i threw up.

"holy shit, y/n!" i noticed ran and izana behind me as my head was still above my toilet while i tried to redeem myself again.

"are you okay??" izana kneeled down next to me and helped me up.

"yea... i'm sorry, i must've eaten something bad"

—

— a week later —

today is rindou's funeral. ran has changed ever since rindou died. it was normal in the first few days but now that over a week has passed... he's way different than he was before.

his brother died.. i understand that he's going through a hard time - trust me, i really do. but seeing ran like this actually breaks my heart. he's always full of energy, nothing could ever make him a quiet person.. but now his brother died and he's starting to turn into him.

it's not a bad thing... rindou was fun to be around too, but everyone knows he was more quiet than ran.. seeing ran becoming just like his brother shows how much he misses him.

my brother died too. we all know that and i never forgot, it hurt a lot.

but for ran its different.

rindou and ran have done everything together, ever since they can think.. a life without the other is something no one could ever imagine, neither ran, rindou or anyone on the outside world.

he hasn't said anything but i know that he's breaking apart.. and i know even tho rindou said he's not mad at ran anymore, he still blames himself for hooking up with me... and the same goes for me. he'll never be the same anymore.

—

we arrived at the funeral, rindou didn't have too many close friends so most of the people here were just people that were in tenjiku.. i couldn't spot any family members other than ran... which made the whole even worse, knowing they only had each other.

i stood in front of the grave and looked down at coffin that rindou was laying in. he was wearing a suit.. they cleaned his body but the hole in his forehead was still really visible... i mean, how would it even go away?

i put my hands together and gave him a few prayers.

'i wish i could've spent more time with you... even just as a friend'

me too, rindou... if only we would've had more time as friends.

a tear rolled down my cheek.

why do all the people that mean a lot to me just... die on me?

kenji... emma... and now rindou.