Make me Better ~Eddie Munson x Reader~

68. Don't give up on me

"Darling, we—" And we got cut off by Laura yelling for us from downstairs, making me wince from the bad timing.

"Dinner is ready! Come down!" Y/N licked her lips and gulped, standing up from the bed.

"Come on, let's go eat." She says before walking out of the room, making me sigh deeply, my feelings all over the place, standing up and looking at my book on the desk. I would get it later. I walked out of the room and down the stairs, heading into the dining room.

"Let's all sit down now." Wayne says and I take my seat next to Y/N, looking down at my plate of Pesto Pasta. I smiled at it and began digging in as well as everyone else. Wayne was telling us that he got a position of manager at the plant, and that his schedule is going to change. I was happy for my old man, he worked really hard for that position, going to night schooling of the plant to be ready, and learn everything he needed to get the job. Having him during the day now was a breather, and I knew that it would do him good.

"That's so great Wayne, congratulations!" Y/N beamed and my heart tugged at her honest words. My uncle smiled widely at her and nodded gratefully. He then continued talking as I took a bite out of my food.

"So... You are turning 18 young lady... Any plans?" Shit. Her birthday. I almost dropped the cutlery but I managed to regain my breathing, swallowing the pasta down. She shifted on her seat and looked down at her food.

"I don't really... have any. It's a school day, Thursday, so I am guessing a normal day for me?" She said, shrugging at her words and I blinked, biting my bottom lip. It's next week. Shit. Shit. Shit. I felt my nervousness picking up slightly. I don't know what she will expect from me. Will she even expect me to give something to her?

"Now that won't do. We're having dinner that night." Wayne commented and Laura nodded at her.

"Yes, and the next day you can celebrate with your friends." She said with a smile and I looked at the girl sitting next to me, who was playing with her food right now.

"I really don't care... Just one celebration is fine." She answered and I thought back of the many parties she threw for her birthday. Of course, I wasn't invited to any, but I always heard everyone got so shit faced that they had to skip school for two days. My leg was bouncing as thoughts ran through my head about what I could possibly do for her, or if I even should. Fuck.

"Nonsense! I will see you on Thursday night sweetheart, Eds is coming too." And I swallowed the pasta. For some reason, I felt like running away, but at the mention of my name, her head lifted up and looked at me, waiting for a response. I slowly nodded and then I cleared my throat.

"I'll try to move the campaign for next Thursday." At that, Y/N shook her head at me, making me frown.

"No, no, you've been planning this campaign for a long time." And that just made me sound like a fucking asshole. It's not that I forgot about her birthday... When I started planning the campaign, we weren't talking at all, and I thought it would be like that for a long while. I shook my head at her and sent her a small smile.

"Don't worry. The boys will be glad to postpone it knowing it's for your birthday." She groaned and looked down at her food. I frowned at her response and I took notice that she wasn't fond of her birthday.

"Seriously... Don't worry so much about it... Please don't make it a big deal." And I looked over at Laura and I noticed she was looking at me with eyes that told me that she needed help. I gave her one nod and I knew what I had to do. I knew that this would be her first every birthday with friends, and I can't let her go through another miserable birthday by herself.

"Okay! Anything you want darling?" Wayne asked her with a smile on his face, trying to change the heavy air that filled the room and I looked at her expectantly and she shook her head at him, smiling softly.

"It's okay, I don't really need anything... WAIT, I want one of those sandwiches your plant sells." I snorted at that and he chuckled, nodding at her.

"Those are very greasy dear..." She shrugs and keeps the smile on her face.

"But they're delicious, and I haven't tried a sandwich like that anywhere else." I remembered sneaking the sandwich out of my fridge while he was at work in the night, stealing the leftover. We had just finished a blunt together and she winced in disgust at seeing the state of the beef sandwich, but once she took the bite off it, her eyes widened in delight and she moaned in each bite. Of course, after she finished I was hungry for something else, and... I took a large sip of my water to keep the heat down, remembering that night. That fucking heated night.

"Alright. I'll get you a sandwich." He smiled at her and she danced on her seat making me chuckle slightly at the sight.

We finished dinner and Wayne was already getting up to go home, saying goodbye to Y/N. I gulped, looking at her and she was coming over towards me, and I stopped her before she said anything.

"I forgot my book upstairs." I looked at her for a second, and she frowned at me. I walked up the stairs and into her room, waiting to see if she got the hint. Gladly, I heard her walk in behind me, and I turned to look at her. My heart felt as if it were clenching, and my gut was turning, and my head was telling me to be careful, over, and over and over again...

"It's on the desk—"

"The talk from before..." I voiced out and I saw her breathing hitch because she jumped slightly at my words. I could see something in her eyes that made me feel... sad. She looked as if she had just been defeated, and that is the last thing I wanted her to think of me.

I don't want her to doubt my feelings. I don't want her to give up on us... to give up on me.

"You don't have to answer, I—" And I stepped forward, towards her, the banging in my head wanting to make me pull away but I can't. I can't let her bring herself down. I can't let her believe everything is broken, because it isn't. I am the broken one. I am the one that has to be fixed. I held onto both sides of her face, gently, and I leaned down, my lips pressing softly against hers.

My heart leaped, my body shivered, and I groaned into the kiss, letting the air out. I heard her moan in delight, her hands shooting up to my waist so we could balance together on our feet. It was a tender long peck on the lips. I felt my whole body turn into complete jelly under her touch, and under her lips which I've been longing for so many days and nights. It's been way too long... I pulled away slowly from her, agonizingly even, already wanting to slam my lips against hers once more, but I had to draw another line, even if it hurt me to do so.

"I just need a little more time sweetheart... Just a little..." I breathed onto her lips, my eyes closed as our foreheads rested against one another, noses touching and I just felt in heaven. I heard her breathing and then nod against me, almost desperately. She's waiting for me. This amazing girl in front of me is waiting for me. What did I do to deserve her?

"I'll wait... I'll keep waiting Eds..." I wanted to take her right then and there. I bit the inside of my cheek and I gulped, slowly retreating from her, my eyes opening to see her looking at me with a flushed face and a heavy breath. I need to leave before I do anything else to her. I can hardly control myself. I grabbed the book off the desk and I looked at her.

"See you at school..." She nodded at me and I walked by her, going down the stairs. I greeted Laura as I rushed outside to meet my uncle, who looked at me, frowning in confusion at something that I didn't even notice I was doing.

"What's with the wide smile boy?"

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End of chapter 68

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A/N: Okay so we're a little bit more into Eddie's thoughts on why he is having many trust issues and can anyone really blame him?  

I am really happy with how I wrote this chapter, because I felt like I haven't shown his feelings properly the last few chapters I wrote.

Do you guys think that Eddie did good on kissing Y/N to make sure she knows about his ongoing feelings? Or do you think that would just lead her on?

See you on next chapter lovelies! I hope you enjoyed!