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6~Scared

I roll my lips into my mouth my cheeks turning slightly pink. We stop outside of room 1204 and I watch as Justin fishes the key card for his room out of his trouser pocket before opening the door. He walks in flicking the lights on and I follow quietly behind him.

Justin smiles scratching the back of his neck and ducking his head quietly. I slip my shoes off my the door sighing in relief when my feet stretch out against the cool floor.

"Do you, uh, wanna go on the balcony or we can hang out in here, or....well, anything really."Justin mumbles shrugging. I glance around the room quickly as I shrug. This isn't even a room it's a full suite, so spacious and glamorous. There must be at least 3 rooms and there's still a huge living area along with a kitchen with everything but a real oven not that Justin would ever need to use one. It's extensive for just a week, or however long he's staying here. I doubt it's long. But really what was I expecting? It's Justin.

Everything is in its place all of the surfaces not showing a scratch. "Just here?" I ask looking to Justin. He nods and starts to head over to the material couch with that's not too far away from me. It looks pretty comfy.I follow behind Justin , loving the cool air against my skin as soon as Justin presses the AC on.

He turns the TV on just as I curl my feet under me on the couch and I open the bag of caramel popcorn in my bag stuffing three peices in my mouth before offering the bag to Justin. He's too busy flicking through the TV to care.

"I hate this." I grumble setting the bag of popcorn down on the large glass table in the middle of the living room area it crinkled loudly causing Justin to look at me his eyes a little wide in interest. We'd been sat in a small silence for the last minute the only sound the talking on the TV which was already starting to get on my nerves. Damn, why am I so pissy?

"What?" Justin asks me, his lips slightly pursed and eyebrows furrowed as I glance to him. He's serious now.

"This isn't us." I groan squeezing my eyes closed for a moment before I reopen them to look at Justin. He just kind of stares at me open mouthed which makes me roll my eyes. "You weren't this quiet and I didn't feel so...so scared of you and what you're going to say." I mumble shyly sighing after a moment. "We weren't like this last year."

"Because it was last year, nine months ago. A lot has changed in both of our lives." Justin shrugs running a hand through his hair. "We're not the same people we were then." Justin says calmly each word slipping out of his mouth as though it was well rehearsed.

"I shouldn't be here." I mumble more to myself than Justin

"It's okay that we're different." He hums his hand reaching out for my arm but I unintentionally move just as his fingertips would reach the bare skin on my arm.

"I'm not saying it's not okay." I defend my lips forming a frown as I try to work out what exactly is going on in my head. What is going on? I open my mouth a few times only to close it moments later before finally giving up. Then it comes to me. "I guess I just wanted one thing to be the same, I wanted you to be the same because even when we weren't dating I-I'm not sure what but I just wanted one thing to be the same." I sigh not sure if my thoughts made sense. They probably didn't, I couldn't work them out so how the hell was Justin meant to?

His hand touches my arm softly sending warmth through me and is strangely comforting. I almost pull away from his touch... almost, but after a quick flash of his smile I find myself leaning into him. Something about Justin is so calming and yet with a small gesture he can have my heart racing painfully fast.

"Come here," mutters making a small motion with his fingers as I scoot closer to him. His arm wraps around my shoulders, pulling me close to him and I can't help the way I relax in his touch. He uses his right hand to change the channel and I coo excitedly when he switches the channel to Scandal.