Does he know? ~aonung x oc

Part 23

 i said slapping his face untill realization hit, anger

madnes anger, i was fuming and i saw big guy from a distance facing away from me and i grabbed kauris dagged and slowly crept over to where he was, he was holding kiri whith a knife to her neck, jake was there tuk and spider too and neytiri i thought about how i would do this and it got me, Sometimes your whole life boils down to one insane move.

i quickly jumped from behind as he let go of kiri putting kauris dagger to his neck holding his braid and i spat in his face "vrrtep reypay" (demon blood) and first i stabbed him just above his heart where neteyam was shot, then in his stomach where kauri was shot and he let out a blood curling scream as i twisted the knife then pulled it out watching his blood gush out i stood up and walked away from everyone back to kauri, no one followed me as they we caringing about the family making sure everyone was safe,

i felt the boat start to tip and i quickly got kauri on my shoulders and attempted to run with him which turned into fast walking and i threw him off the boat following behind him, i called and ilu and once came i quickly grabbed kauris body and swam with him to the rock neteyam was resting at and i placed him down with ao'nungs help and i sat next to neteyams body

my face felt numb, my injerys felts numb even though there was a deep cut on my shoulder and multiple smaller cuts on my body and bruises forming and ao'nung came besides me "my love" he said and he pulled me into his warm, his comfort

thats what i needed right now, i needed his comfort, i needed him, just to be with him

my tears started to swell again and i finally chocked them out hugging into his body and screaming into his shoulder and he hugged my tighter "i know my love, i know" he whispered kissing my head, my three bestfriends died today. and i held onto ao'nung scared he would disappear or ill feel his body go numb like i had twice today and i cried

i cried for my parents, for neteyam, for kauri, for ui'la,  for my old home, for missing lo'ak, for missing my friends, i cried for the pain i was feeling in my heart and stomach, it feels like when my parents died all over again, i wanted to shut myself off, i wanted to feel numb, i couldnt bare the pain i was feeling now "it shouldve been me" i muttered out into his shoulder, i looked at my hands to see them covered in kauri- or neteyams blood and i screamed again and cried more 

all ao'nung did was hug me tighter and tighter he went to pick me up "no!" i said getting off him "i cant leave them" i cried out and he came behind me pulling me onto him "we cn wait here till the others come so they can help" he suggested and i nodded my head melting into his touch, he kissed my forehead and i looked at the fire that started to rise on th water and i felt more tears rush down my face as i didnt know if the sullys were safe or not i just held onto ao'nung and hoped for the best

small time skip

my face was stained with tears the sullys were back, we were all sitting on the rock, the family was with their son as i sat next to kauri, my face felt sore, my body fet sore but i, i felt numb, like nothing, like a pice of paper i felt numb, the healers came to he rock and picked up the two lifefless bodys carrying them to the main island, i rode on ao'nungs ilu not wanting to be away from him incase i might break down, i feel so fragile, as if this was a trigger for my 'deprssion', as jake called it, to come back.

i havnt said a word, not even hummed, i feel like eywa sucked the life out of me, although i would much rather she did, and not neteyam or kauri. i wished it was me, to be honest iv been preying this was a dream and im actually the dead one and neteyam and kauri are living their best lives right now, i have been pinching myself incase i wake myself up from the dream, iv done it so much im drawing blood

once we reached the main island ao'nung noticed i had been pinching myself and he put a hand over mine to stop me from doing it and i looked at him, he looked like he had been crying and my hear ached for him "what tis is" i asked him my voices cracky, but he looked like he was about to break again and he shook his head no, i pulled him away from everyone and i reached for my braid, "if you cant tell me, let me feel it, so i can understand" i said and he reached for his braid and connected it with mine

overwhelming sadness, he felt empty and angry, but mostly sad very sad, "my brother" he whispered out and i realized, his spirit brother must've gotten hunted down and i looked at him and pulled him close as it was his turn to cry into my shoulder hearing his soft whimpers and i rubbed his back "ma'nung you will be ok, maybe not right now, but you will be ok" i said to him reassuring him and he cried more, he slightly bit my shoulder in an attempt to stop his crys 

"tis ok ma'nung, you can cry" i said to him and he hugged me tightly "i love you ma'rina" he said "i love you ma'nung and i see you" i said, every time our queues were connected we had to touch each other in anyway possible, which is why this hug not only feeling comforting it feels out of the world, the skin to skin contact and the way his warm ears rolled on my back it was comfterble, and i felt slightly happier then before

he finally pulled away and we disconnected our queues and he looked at me putting his fore head to mine and he breathed in my scent and i rubbed the bck of his neck both of us lost our spirit animals, he just didnt know about mine.

i could understand how he feels and i knew he needed me, just like i needed him, eventually we got up and he walked me to the family pod and he stopped out the front, "your family now ao'nung, you can come in" i said and he followed behind me, neytiri rushed to me and gave me a hug "i saw ui'la im so sorry child" she said and in that moment i wanted to cry again but i pushed it down, causing me to feel numb again and i hugged her back, i then went up to jake and hugged him tight wanting to feel that fartherly comfort 

he hugged me back and i felt his tears drop on my head as he tried to comfort me and he pulled away, "here you need to get ready for the funnerals" he told me and handed me white paint tears swelled in my eyes, realization hit me again and i nodded my head taking the paint walking out ao'nung behind me follwoing me to my hut and i gave him the pain when we walking in "please" i said "of course my love" he said and began to add the paint to my face

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THIS IS MY OFFICAL APOLOGY

I wanna apologies to all of you for what i did, it was very wrong and im very sorry i just would like to move on and live a normal life, you know get a job and a BLUE husband, and change my ways, and i hope this apology impresses you even though i wrote the book with the full intent to kill neteyam kauri and ui'la, love you all 

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