The First Time (Phan)

Chapter 20 - See You Soon

Then she grabbed the popcorn and strolled into the living room with the boys, leaving me staring dumbfoundedly after her.

That topic of conversation never came up again. But I couldn't help but hear Mrs. Lester's last few words then ring in my ears.

"You're more than a best friend to him Dan."

What did that even mean? Did Phil like me from the beginning? Since we Skyped had he been keeping his feelings from me. Did he take me to the Manchester Wheel knowing that he wanted to kiss me. Did he want me to kiss him then? Had he spent all this week liking me more than I thought he did? In a way I hope he did...

I stopped in my tracks. The station platform only a few metres away and the train due to part in five minutes. But that didn't matter at the moment.

"Phil." I spoke softly as he turned to face me, noticing that I'd froze. I couldn't look him in the face. Instead I looked down at the station floor, my fringe falling in front of my face.

"Dan?" Phil's voice was quite and unsure. I smiled at the slight nervous behind it. "Dan are you ok?"

"Yeah." I spoke even quieter, barely above a whisper. "Phil I have something to ask you."

"What is it?" He sounded genuinely worried about me now. Bless him.

"Phil. A few days ago, I had a talk with your mother. Nothing particularly deep about it. Just a nice conversation. But..." here came the hard part. I could already feel my face going red and I hadn't even said anything yet! "She said something that's been playing in my mind over the last few days. Just a small thing, but still it's been there, ticking away in the back of my mind."

"What was it?" He questioned, "I swear if the woman offended you I apologise so much. I'll have a talk with her, make sure she understands and feels bad. If she's said something I will... I will..."

I let out a quiet giggle at how protective and worked up he was getting over me. Even defending me against his own mother. Maybe he did really care about me. "No. no!" I look up at him, smiling to reassure him it was nothing like that.

He froze mid rant and look down at me again. His eyes searching mine for what the real question was, "What is it then?"

"She ah... she said. Um..." My cheeks were going red again. A lump in my throat making me unable to speak. "She uh, said that... you said ah that..."

"BEEEEEEEEEEPPPP!"

A high pitched whistle blew out. Crap! That was my train!

"Shit!" I let out. "Y'know what Phil I'll tell you over Skype. It's not that important." I batted the conversation away. Feeling my heart tense up again at leaving not knowing what Mrs. Lester meant when she said that. It wasn't something I wanted to talk about over Skype. It was too important. But at the moment, I had no choice. I really want to punch the train conductor.

I started to hastily grab all of my things and sprint towards my platform. Only to feel a hand wrap around my wrist and pull me closer to a body. Phil.

"Don't think you're going anywhere without a goodbye."

Then his lips crushed against mine.

They were desperate, for me to stay, for me to kiss back. But they were full of need. It was rough and quick but it was full of more passion than anything I'd ever felt from him. There was no want, no lust. Just pure affection. I could feel the tears rolling down his cheek and mine. People were definitely staring but I couldn't give a fuck. This, right now. Was my heaven. My Neverland. Phil pressed up against me proving that he wasn't going to forget me anytime soon. Neither of us wanted to pull away but we both knew that we had to.

I pulled away first, looking up at him with a sad look and tears in my eyes, blurring his face slightly but I could still see his perfect features looking down at me. His eyes full of sadness but a smile on his face, "Go." he spoke softly.

"Phil." I tried to argue back but he shoved me a little. Nothing violent or hurting, but it proved his point.

"Go!" He said through his tears that were running down his cheek.

I nodded and grabbed my things before sprinting towards my train which had now started its engine. My heart pounding in my chest from the sudden burst of exercise and the hurt it was to leave Phil behind so suddenly. However there was still butterflies in my stomach from the kiss.

I leapt through the doors of the train as they just closed behind me. I'd made it onto the train again by a mere milliseconds. Before even thinking about catching my breathe I ran towards an open window down and looked out to see Phil waving at me. Tears rolling down his face.

"See you soon Dan!" He yelled at the top of his lungs, "I refuse to say goodbye to you you dummy!"

I laughed and waved my hand out the window. "I'll see you soon Phil!"

As the train pulled out of the station, Phil disappeared behind me. But the feel of his lips against mine and the feeling of my beating heart against my chest as he did it, still moved along with me.

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