Why not me?

Chapter 2

Once I make my way down the stairs, I can almost immediatley feel the glares coming from Belly and my mother. I try to turn around but get stopped by Susannah as she nudges me to keep going. "Y/n! I saved you a seat I was hoping you would decide to come play with us." I realize the seat he saved for me is inbetween him and Conrad. I mentally sigh, thinking he might yell at me for sitting next to him. I know he came to get me earlier but what if he changed his mind about me again? Once I sit I try and make myself as small as posible trying to hide from any insults that may come my way. 

"What are we playing?" I ask so quietly  I don't think anyone heard me till Conrad answers me out loud. "We thought you could pick." His tone is soft be hes looking anywhere but at me.  Belly's eyes look like they are about to pop out of their sockets, until I speak up and say, "I dont think that the best idea." Still speaking quietly, but not quietly enough though because Belly jumps up from the couch staring at me as if I'm from a diferent planet. "I agree!" Not only is she glaring at me, I think she just ruptured my ear drumb with her screech. "I do not care what you think belly if you are going to insult my goddaughter you are not going to play, and you can go sulk with your mother." Only then did I realize my mom was not here. "Y/n, if you would like to pick the game we play you may." Mid way though Susannahs sentence Belly stormes off stomping her way up the staires. "Could we play (your favorite board game)?" " Wonderfull choice Y/n!" Susannah jumps up exitedly going to get the board game. 

"Can we talk later. Alone." Conrad mumbles in my ear just loud enough for me to hear but no one else. "Sure... I guess." I'm not certain why I said yes, now I'm afriad hes going to yell at me for making Belly leave. After we talk whats going to happen? We play three rounds, and somehow I end up winning all three. Jeremiah whines saying I cheated,  but I did nothing of the sorte. At least he still knows how to make me laugh. We end up turning on a movieof Susannahs choosing even though she fell asleep half way through it.

Once the movie is finished jeremiah lightly wakes up susannah as I make my way outside after tell Steven that I was okay after sitting next to Conrad for that long. I assumed Conrad went to bed and hopfully forgot he wanted to talk to me. When i hear the sliding glass door open I know he didnt forget, I knew I should have gone to bed but a part of me wanted to know what he wanted to talk about. I look over my shoulder after a little while thinking maybe if i didn't talk he would just go away. Once again i was proved wrong when he sat next to me.

"Hi." I mutter with little courage I have. I dont know why he is talking to me now. This is the first time he initiated a conversation with me was when our mom decided we were staying at the beach house an extra 3 monthes because its Conrad and Stevens last summer. Most people would think more summer is great, and im not saying its not its just that I would have liked to go back to school. Me and Belly go to difrant schools, so school is my escape from her and mom. Conrads voice brings me out of my thoughts.

"Hi." Thats all he says. I know thats all I said but I am not the one who wanted to talk to the girl whos virgnity i stole then stopped talking to.  I sigh because I cant take this silence anymore. "What are you playing at Connie, you've been ignoring me for a month and when you do talk to me you make me feel like shit." He sighs but he knows im telling the truth. I can feel him staring at me but I dont look up at him. "I'm sorry, that night should have never happened. I thought for once someone was picking me over belly but I guess I was wrong." I mumble that last part slightly hopeing he wouldnt hear it, but by the way he kicks his feet in the water tells me he did.

"Y/n look at me please." He somthing in his voice but I couldnt quite figure out what it was. "How are you feeling?" What. Finally I lift my head to look at him in confusion, this past month hes been an ass and no hes asking how im feeling? Somethings not adding up. "I found this in your bathroom when my mom made me clean them all for day drinking." He softly whispers pulling my pregnancy test that I thought I hid. I feel like pitching my self in the pool and never reaching the surface. I stare at the test in horrer. "You werent supposed to find that, no one was. Only Steven knows no-no one else is supposed to know. My moms going to kill me. I shouldnt be herre anymore. You probably dont even want to be here. Where is everyone else im sure they are watching." I say looking every which way until Conrad gently grabs my chin making the thoughts in my head pause for a moment. " No one else is out here my love, its only us and I cant wait to raise this baby togehter-."

"Wake up Y/n, your crying in your sleep again." Only when I open my eyes do i realize its steven talking to me and im not outside. Not even close, im in my bed and its light out. I realize it was all a dream, Conrad being nice, him fiding out about the baby, my  mind tricked me, made me think he cared for me. "What happened?" I ask steven barally recognising my own voice because of how scratchyy it is from all the crying. "Well after Belly and mom had their freakout you ran up here and I followed you to make sure you were okay, but then after about 5 minutes you fell aslep and Susannah said not to wake you but its morning and breakfest is ready." He says softly. "So we didnt play a few board games or have a movie night?" Steven shakes his head. "I didnt talk to Conrad, he doesnt know abou the baby?" Once again Steven shakes his head this time while pulling me into a hug. "It was all a dream? He doesnt care for me does he?" I say as the tears fall down my face faster then I an stop them. "Oh Y/n, I wish I could change this. Im so sorry."