Sinking Deep (GL)

CHAPTER 11

Parang tinapon lang.

"You won the competition, I will train you," she coldly said.

I almost forgot my recent victory in the art competition. Kaya pala kilala na ako ng iba dahil sa pagkapanalo ko. Winning the competition has brought me recognition and fame in the university, I guess.

I feel a surge of excitement knowing that I'll be trained by the woman I've always admired. I don't care kung susungitan niya ako palagi basta makikita ko lang siya araw-araw.

"Ngayon agad Ma'am? right here, right now?" tanong ko. Kasi it's lunch at kailangan ko pang kumain kasi wala pa akong breakfast.

She raised her eyebrows at me, "definitely."

"Pero Ma'am it's lunch time and I need to eat," sagot ko dito.

She sighed, massaging her temple.

"I will get you food, what do you want?" she asked.

What?

Nabigla ako sa sinabi niya, ako? bibilhan niya ng pagkain?

"A-anything y-you want, Ma'am." I replied, stuttering. I couldn't help but to smile inside, totoo ba ʼto?

"Right, do your work and wait here, " she said.

"Ano pong gagawin ko dito Ma'am?" tanong ko. Hindi ko naman kasi alam kung ano ang gagawin ko, binigyan lang ako ng blank na canvas.

Anong gusto niya titigan ko lang ʼto?

"What should I do with this?" I asked again, trying to hide my uncertainty.

"It's up to you to figure it out. Use your creativity and imagination," she explained, her response was laced with irritation.

Her words a little bit hurt, but at the same time, they sparked something within of me. She exuded confidence, and her unwavering devotion to art only increased my admiration for her.

"Sit there," sabi niya sabay turo sa couch niya, "do what I have told you while I get you food." Dagdag nito sabay lumabas sa office dala ang black purse niya.

Naiwan ako sa office niya, nakangiting umupo sa couch. Kinikilig talaga ako by her action kahit masungit. Tumayo ako sa sa couch saka kinuha ang black canvas sa table niya pero wala siyang binigay na mga brush at color pallets, anong ikukulay ko dito?

Nagdesisyon akong bumalik sa room saka kunin ang bag ko kasi nandun lahat ng gamit ko pang paint tsaka wala akong makitang gamit pang paint sa loob ng office niya, alangan naman pumasok ako doon sa isang pintuan baka may alaga siyang dragon.

Lumabas akong nakangiti papuntang room. Maraming bumati sakin halos lahat babae, may iba ring tinatanong ang instagram ko tas binigay ko naman.

Malapit na ako sa room nang may nahagip akong dalawang imahe ng tao, nakatayo sa labas ng isang office, magkahawak ang kamay. Onti-onti akong lumapit para makilala and there, bigla na namang nanikip ang dibdib ko as they were both smiling, seemingly lost in their own world.

It's Ma'am Rhea and Sir Montejo.

My emotions were in turmoil as I watched them, and a wave of pain swept over me. I had been secretly envious of her from afar, daydreaming of the time when our paths would cross and we could have a more meaningful relationship.

Mali ako, mali ako sa part na umasang may pag-asa ako sa kanya when in fact I know na wala akong pag-asa.

Because she has someone she loved.

Seeing her with someone else shattered my hopes and left me feeling heartbroken. It was as if my dreams had crumbled before my eyes, and I felt an overwhelming sense of loss and disappointment.