Sinking Deep (GL)

CHAPTER 13

It's so confusing to have these feelings for someone who is already in a relationship.

I tried to hide my emotions and focus on other things, but whenever I see her, my heart can't help but skip a beat.

I don't know what to do or how to handle this situation because she's still giving me mixed signals.

Nakarating kami sa cafeteria ni Ma'am Vivien at hawak ko pa rin ang kamay niya, ang awkward. Pinagtinginan kami ng mga student sa cafeteria since sobrang laki ng cafeteria ng school. I looked at Ma'am Vivien asking permission if pwede ko na ba bitawan ang kamay niya and she nods indicating that pwede na.

"Anong gusto mong lunch?" tanong nito sakin nang naupo na ako sa vacant na seat.

"Ako na po Ma'am, sabihin niyo lang po sakin kung ano gusto niyo at ako na ang kukuha." Sabi ko dito sabay tayo.

Well, nakakahiya naman talaga, she's still my professor at hindi sidekick.

Nang narinig ni Ma'am Vivien ang sinabi ko ay umupo ito saka nilagay ang isang kamay sa mukha niya, staring at me, like she's adoring every part of my face.

I awkwardly smile, "w-what do y-you want, Ma'am?" I utterly asked.

"What you order is what I'm getting," sagot nito habang nakangiti.

Pilit akong ngumiti tsa saka iniwan si Ma'am Vivien sa table.

I know, but kahit anong gawin ko I can't like her. It's true that she's kind to me but I can't, I'm still inlove with the woman who captured my heart.

Umorder ako ng salad at porkchop with lemon juice. Dinala ko na ʼto sa table namin ni Ma'am Vivien, she's there watching me as I walk.

"You're so beautiful," sabi niya nang makarating ako sa table kung nasaan siya, "May nakapagsabi na ba sayo niyan?" she added.

Umiling ako, "Wala pa naman po."

"I'm glad," she answered.

This professor is really something.

Nilagay ko na sa table ang inorder ko saka umupo sa kaharap niya. We started eating peacefully, hindi pa rin nawawala ang ngiti ni Ma'am Vivien sakin, in every move I make nakatingin siya na nakangiti.

"I heard Miss Rhea will train you for 2 weeks?" tanong niya sakin. Sumusubo ako ng pagkain at tumigil para sagutin siya.

"Yes Ma'am," tipid kong sagot.

"Be careful when you're with her, okay?" she said.

"Bakit po?" I asked, confused.

Bakit niya sinasabing mag-ingat ako? is there something wrong with her? I thought magkaibigan sila but why is she telling me to be careful with Ma'am Rhea?

"Nothing, it's just she behave like she's not the Rhea I know when she's with you or when she see you." She stated making me feel a bit mad at her.

Tumango nalang ako, ayaw ko rin pagsalitaan siya. Mabilis kung inubos ang pagkain ko, gusto kong malinawan ang sinabi ni Ma'am Vivien. Anong bang ibig sabihin ng mga sinabi niya?

Kumain kami at ilang minuto lang ay natapos kaming kumain, "What time will you be practicing?" she asked.

"Hindi ko po alam," I answered. "Hindi pa siya nagsabi ng oras sakin."

With an "Ohhh" in her face, tumango ito saka ngumiti. "Let's go? you still have a class later."

"Yes Ma'am and thank you for having a meal with me," pagpapasalamat ko sa kanya.