I'm (not) okay.

It started with him and Charles. They started dating in 2020. They became closer in Corona quarantine. And at the end of 2020, they had a relationship.

It felt amazing and Lando never felt harder for someone than he felt for Charles. But suddenly, in 2021, when he got close again with George, he started to have feelings for him too and he was so confused. He felt terrible for falling for George while he had an amazing boyfriend. He told Charles the truth, which was very hard, but Lando couldn't lie. Charles wasn't mad.

Long story short. They had a threesome with George and after a while they talked about it and they decided to see what it's like to be in a relationship with the three of them.

And then Alex came back in 2022 on the grid. And to be honest, he never stood so far away from them as he did right at the beginning of the season. He was so focused on driving that he didn't spend much time with them. Alex knew that they were in a relationship, so at first they were scared that he had something against them or thought it was weird.

But after talking with him, they found out that he didn't think it was weird and was actually happy for them. He shared his insecurity about driving and how much he wanted to show everyone that he could drive.

And that's how they became closer to each other again, how they met up more, their game nights or movie nights. But also certainly how often Alex stays over for the night now that they all live in Monaco. They had all collected films that they wanted to watch together and that's what they did in the evening. George, Charles and Lando shared a bedroom and Alex slept in the guest room Lando had in his home. Max often sleeps with him when he comes from England.

And then he stopped coming to their movie nights. And it was like the beginning, Alex was out of their lives again, ignoring their calls or messages. When they saw each other on track, then he walked away or had somewhere to go. Alex was a lot with Nicky, who said to George that Alex was acting strangely.

Because Nicky and George were still friends, he knew what was going on and he kept an eye out for Alex and informed George. When Alex found out he became very angry with them, it felt like they were playing with his feelings.

The worst thing was, after that, it was summer break and no one saw or heard anything from Alex for weeks. His house was dark all the time. There was no sign of living. He was probably on holiday with his family but no one was posting anything about it, so they were not sure.

When they saw him in Belgium, George grabbed his arm and pulled him to his motorhome. No matter how hard Alex tried to get free, he couldn't. They talked and that is when Alex told them he couldn't keep doing what they did. He never felt so alone as when he was with them. Ever since Liliy broke up with him, he had been scared to get close to people again, he was so in love with her and it hurt him a lot. So seeing them cuddled up on the sofa and he was on the other one alone, it hurt him and they didn't think about it.

There were feelings on all sides but Alex told them that he couldn't do it. He was not ready for another relationship, even when he and Lilly had already broken up a year and a half ago.

Then Monza happened and they never let Alex go again.

George got the call of how bad Alex was doing, and how they connected him to a ventilator because his lungs were starting to fail. It scared them and every minute they could, they were there with Alex.

Gradually, Alex accepted them more and more and they had a relationship with four people.

“Lando.” He startles at the hand on his shoulder and then looks into Max's face.

"We are done." Says Max and Lando nods.

"Are you okay? You suddenly lost all the concentration." Says Max.