What was I made for ?..

What have I done?..

It's been 5 minutes now since Mila had left the apartment. 5 minutes since I let the love of my wife walk out that door. 5 minutes since I struck her down and forced her to go. She didn't deserve any of this...

I can hear pierre shout, Luisinha laugh and the cries of Kika hurried in Lando's chest. His eyes were deep and sunken as if he just lost his world. Even if they did kiss I pushed her into his arms, she was correct. Just like before I tossed her aside for Alex.

"I need to find her!" I finally speak breaking out of my mental turmoil.

"Charles she's gone for crying out loud, what the fuck did you just do?" Pierre shouts as his hands grip each of my arms, trying to shake me into reality.

I push him off, and head straight to the person who would know where she is.

"Where the fuck is she lando?"

"I have no idea mate."

"Mate? You're not my mate if you were you would've never have kissed my wife!"

"Charles you're scaring kika, calm down! Pierre!" The Brit exclaims hoping to reunite the couple.

"Kika, I'm here baby. Come here."I hear Pierre say his voice concerned for his girlfriends well-being.

"P you didn't see her face... he hit her, he actually hit her." Kikas cries were what finally broke me out of this trance.

Tears were streaming down my face as I examined the damage on my hand, my knuckles were all ready bruised and covered in blood, not my blood but hers.

My legs suddenly fail me and I'm on the floor in tears, crying out for her. Crying for her to be ok. Crying for her to come home.

To my surprise I feel arms wrap around me, it was lando. The man I was merely threatening moments ago. He pulls me into a hug and lets me cry, I could see Pierre and Kika crying too their eyes never leaving me.

"I'm so sorry lando"

"It's not me who you owe the apology too."

"No but I do... I should've thanked you. For being there for her when I wasn't she was right..."

"She was..."

"She's really gone hasn't she?"

I hear lando hum in my ear, too afraid to admit the truth, fighting back his own tears. He knows he says 'yes' right now that it's true.

"Is she coming home?"

"No mate, she's not coming home."

My cries deepen as I know that she's never coming back. If she was he would've reassured me but he didn't he told me the truth, I pushed her away. I destroyed her enough to make her run away. I made her a ghost, just like mini became all those years ago.

I finally find the strength told stand. "Im really sorry for everything guys, im so so sorry. I don't know what came over me. I promise i love her with everything that I have."

They stayed silent too scared to create another reaction out of me.

"Kika im so sorry for scaring you, and hurting your friend. I really hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me."

"Pierre, if Mila didn't step between us. That would've been you on the other end of my fist. Brother I will forever be sorry, I know I've lost your respect tonight, please don't let me lose my best friend too. I c n'y survive without you if I don't have her..."

"Lando, I will spend the rest of my life making this up to you but please, if you have any idea where she could be, will you please fine her and bring her home... I can't live without her."