A Crystal Love

Chapter 31 - Angel Baby

"Hey, calm down." Rome grabs my shoulders and leads me back to the bed where he sits down with me on his thigh.

'You're trembling." I hear him say, as he rubs my upper arm.

When I first got on birth control, I got it from a clinic in Boston because I was still finishing out my senior year of University....then when that was done, I got back to Hartford and started to get my shots once a month from the hospital in Rocky hill with Dr. Vidal as my gynecologist..A few months in, my periods started to get irregular and cramps..all of which I was told was a normal side effect...but was it really?

What if the miscarriage wasn't natural but orchestrated?

I know Vincent and Lucian would have no problem doing that, but what about Rhea, was she involved in it too? probably. What about Raina? it's her hospital after all.

My blood boils and bile comes up my throat just thinking about my naive 22 year old self being manipulated and played around with like a pawn in an environment where I thought I was safe.

Oh gosh! I don't know what was real and what wasn't anymore...

"Baby, you're hyperventilating...breathe slowly." Roman utters.

I meet his gaze, momentarily falling into a pool of green, until my eyes glaze over.

All of a sudden, I feel claustrophobic and find it hard to breathe, so I stand up abruptly, seeking more air.

The room gets smaller and smaller, the walls starting to move around me, towards me.....It makes me feel dizzy and disoriented.

"Sienna!" Roman growls.

"Just ....stay there." I mumble, stretching my arm out between us.

"I need space....I need air, I can't....breath...I can't......breath when you're crowding me!" I mutter, patting for air.

"Come here." He says, wrapping his fingers around upper arms. He literally drags me towards the large window in the room, pushes it open and lets the cold air rush over my face.

I gasp for air and close my eyes, my fingers gripping the window sill tightly for a few seconds as I try to escape the walls that seem to still be closing in on me.

I can hear myself take quick breaths with my mouth and the caress of Roman's fingers at the back of my head, reminding me that he is there.

But behind the dark veil of my eyelids, I get lost in the darkness, I can't find the exit...instead I am swept away into a time loop, moving further from the present until flashbacks of myself at barely 15 years old suddenly flash through my mind, making me relive an unwanted memory.

Nooo...anything but this...I thought I locked those memories away with a few months of therapy blocking things away......I don't want to remember.....

......but I do......like it was just yesterday....

.......it had rained earlier in the day, leaving the ground damp with the smell of rain still lingering in the air, I loved when the weather was like that, it was one of my favorite seasons after all....I stayed longer at school after classes were over in order to attend Volleyball practice....Ally, still visually impaired at the time had been waiting for me at a park near my school so we could go home together like we did on most days...but that, I was running late and got attacked by two grown men who dragged her to a nearby bush.

I arrived just in time, so to say....I called around for her and looked around....I found one of her braille lying books on the ground and knew she must have been around somewhere....then I saw her..I froze initially for a second, not understanding what was going on. Then I realised she was hurt and ran to her...she was bleeding from a stub wound, terrified and unsure what was going on............it all felt like a fog after that the way everything unfolded....My appearance must have scared them because they say me and hid but when they realised I was alone..they came for me......All I remember is someone coming up from behind and covering my mouth, before being pinned down on the grass. Then they both attacked me and while one of them exclusively held me down, the other one went on to rape me.