Desirable (mxm)

fifty-one; i'm sorry

"Even in ten years?"

The thought makes my heart falter. Viola squeezes my arm. "Even if it's in ten years," she clarifies. "Better than never, right?"

"Not sure I can last that long," I release a morbid sigh.

"It won't be that long. I know how Milo feels about you, he just needs to come to his senses. He won't be able to stay away from you for too long, it's obvious how much he loves you."

I scoff quietly, the word bruising my heart. "If he loved me, he wouldn't have let me go. He's having doubts about me, about us, about everything."

"He asked for space to think about things, he didn't shut you down completely."

"He was trying to lessen the blow."

"Keep holding on, Nate," she whispers.

My head rests against hers and I close my eyes, enjoying the closeness. "I want you to be happy. I want everyone in my life to be happy."

"You contribute to a lot of my happiness," she says softly. "To dad, to Leon, to Imogen, to Elin, to Zade, to Milo. All of us."

I let her words sit on my chest for a while. My throat struggles to swallow.

"But most of all, we all want you to be happy too."

"I appreciate you, Vi."

"Likewise, brother."

♥

I take myself up to bed after training is complete and we have dinner together. I have zero reason to socialise and pretend to laugh at shitty jokes when I'm dying inside. Being alone seems better.

My back rests against my bed and I stare up at the ceiling.

Milo's face flashes in my mind. That beautiful, angelic face.

I almost whimper at the sight of it–even if it isn't real.

I've been craving touching him, holding him, caressing his soft skin and drawing him close to my chest just to hear our heart beats in unison. It's all I want.

He's all I want. He's all I'll ever want.

After my conversation with Viola, all I can think about is Milo's happiness.

I'd give him all my happiness if that meant he'd stop those crazy thoughts he was having. I'd give him anything to make him feel better about himself. I'd do absolutely anything to see him smile again.

My body rolls over on the bed and I clutch the pillow close to my chest and bury my face in it.

Come home to me. I call out in my mind but I don't send it to him. I'm giving him the space he wants. I wish I did send it. I wish he was with me right now because I can barely think about another night without him.

Minutes pass and I don't move but my fingertips begin to tingle. A familiar sensation washes over my body and my eyes widen. I feel my eyes dart around the room as the feeling becomes more prominent.

My heart races and the hairs on my arms begin to stand.

I push myself up from the bed and glance at the door. My eyes narrow slightly, my throat tightening as I feel a thousand different emotions at once.

That's when my brows pinch together and I can't take my eyes off the door.

I stand on shaky legs, confusion washes over me. I start walking towards the sensation that is drawing me in and my hand lingers over the handle for a moment. I can't hear anything and for a moment Milo's scent floats through to my body. Electrifying every inch of me.

I've dreamt of his scent for the past two days. I have no idea if my body is fucking with me. If I'm producing pretend scents because I miss him and my wolf misses him and we're trying to feel closer to him before we lose our fucking minds.

But curiosity gets the better of me and I open my bedroom door only for all the air in my lungs to evaporate when I see my mate staring right back at me. I blink once and then twice, making sure that this isn't a dream or a hallucination.

My eyes roam over his face and I crumble at the sight of him.

I am trembling. He's here. He's really here. My fingers itch to reach out and touch him but I have no idea what called on this surprise visit. I have no idea what he's about to say and that makes my stomach roll with sudden nausea.

My gaze flicks over his face once more and I take in every little detail.

Those eyes. Those perfect blue eyes that hold so much emotion, I can't look away. There are bags under them, red and deep. He looks as bad as I do. These days apart have done nothing but destroy us both and I can't take another second.

"Hi." My voice cracks because I have no idea what else to say.

His shoulder shudder and I'm glad to know that the feeling is mutual. "Hi."

"Y-you're here."

Milo takes one step closer to me, I don't back away. My entire body goes up in flames.

"I'm sorry," he pants, eyes pleading for me to understand. "I love you."

Then his lips are on mine in the most frantic and passionate kiss I've ever felt in my entire life.

♥ ♥ ♥

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