How To Disappear - KiVi [Engl.]

Chapter 4

"I've been..." Chiara takes a deep breath, "I've been okay."

"Just okay?" Violeta raises an eyebrow.

Chiara shrugs, "I'd prefer to be back in Barcelona."

"Understandable."

"I've, uh..." Chiara figures that if Violeta is going to be in Madrid for a month, she'll find out eventually. It's better to tell her now, "I've been seeing someone."

"Can they see you, too?" Violeta jokes.

Chiara rolls her eyes, "You're the worst."

"I'm sorry! It's a habit. Tell me about your woman friend," Violeta smiles and folds her legs under.

"Her name is Alba and she's a photographer. Well, an aspiring photographer. She's... nice."

"That's all you have to say? That she's a semi-photographer and she's nice?" Violeta laughs, "Jesus, Kiki, I'd hate to be your girlfriend."

It's a joke. Coming from anybody else, Chiara would have rolled her eyes and hit them playfully in the arm. But coming from Violeta, it makes her heart clench just a little bit - and not in the good way. I'd hate to be your girlfriend.

"So, are you two serious?" Violeta continues, not even noticing Chiara's mini panic attack.

Chiara composes herself and nods, "Kind of. I mean... we could be. I'd like that."

"Hm."

Violeta doesn't say anything more in response, just a simple hm. Chiara's not sure what it means, but she knows she'll be sitting up in bed for the next three nights thinking about what it could mean. And she hates that Violeta can do that to her with just a simple hm.

"Hey, Keeks?"

"What's up?"

"Do you ever think, what if I made a mistake somewhere down the line?"

It's a serious question coming from Violeta. Hell, it's a serious question coming from anyone.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean... never mind, this is dumb," Violeta waves her hand to dismiss the topic.

"No, man, come on," Chiara presses, "I want to know. What do you mean?"

Violeta sighs and then nods, collecting her thoughts before vocalizing them, "It's just that there are so many things that we have to figure out in life. And most of those are decisions we have to make before we're even old enough to comprehend them. I'm just saying, what if, at some point, you made the wrong decision?"

"Are we talking about me or you?"

"Both of us," Violeta clarifies, "Everybody. It's a general question, really."