Spade (MxM)

Chapter 114

His fingers were buried deep inside of Spade's dark hair as he brushed his fingers through it, weaving in through each layer, he didn't know if he should concentrate on the softness of Spade's hair, or the softness of his lips, or even the way In which Spade's hands moved around his body, gently yet every touch told him just how much Spade wanted him.

Spade slowly pulled away as he almost protested at the loss of Spade's warmth over him, the man looked at him with hooded, desire filled eyes, making the grey to look darker and hot.
Spade's chest was heaving up and down as he stared down at Nate.
He leaned in again and kissed Nate's lips, and this one felt chaste, it wasn't filled with need, more like hesitation, like Spade was holding back and this made Nate to frown slightly

But soon he felt Spade's large hands on somewhere more private than the man had ever touched him before, making him suck in a harsh breath as he froze up, his own lips stop moving with Spade's.
But the funny thing was, his erection didn't go down like he'd expected at the sudden touch.

Spade pulled away and looked down at him, already feeling the doubt oozing off Nate's whole tense posture, with his hand in between them, resting on Nate's hard cock, it only made him feel even more aroused as he felt his own dick jump in excitement
"Do you want me to stop"? He muttered huskily, his eyes watching Nate's face to see any sign of discomfort, the young man didn't answer, he just looked at Spade, his eyes never giving off anything, so Spade could actually read and understand what was going through his mind at the moment.

Instead he slowly pulled his hand away from Nate's crotch as he felt a little bit conscious that he'd maybe done something wrong, moved too fast for Nate's pace, he should have asked before he touched the young man at such an intimate part of his body.

God he was such a fool for diving in first, knowing fully well that either of them had been with someone in that way, he'd definitely scared Nate now.
Nate saw the look in Spade's eyes, like guilt and a bit of regret which made him to quickly speak up, Spade was probably misunderstanding the whole thing.

"I don't want you to stop" he whispered out, seeing the way Spade's eyes landed on his, lips slightly parted and his eyes had lightened up a bit

"It's okay if you want me to stop" Spade pressed and Nate shook his head vigorously

"No.. i.. I didn't mean to freeze up, it's just... It's just that I've never... you know" he muttered out, lowering his eyes and feeling his face flush in embarrassment, Spade raised his head up and peered into his eyes warmly, as if he could see through Nate's very soul.

"Me either, but I want to make you feel good" Spade whispered out, and Nate bit his lip again, it has been a habit for him for a long time, he did think he could stop, and he always saw the way Spade's eyes grew dark whenever he did it.

When they'd first started talking, he thought Spade didn't like when he did that, but now that they were actually together, he realized Spade actually liked when he did it
"Can I make you feel good"? Spade asked huskily, and Nate just nodded wordlessly, even though he had no idea how Spade would do that

"But I don't know what to do" he added quickly, making Spade to smile warmly at him

"You don't have to do anything Cucciolotto, just lay back and let me make you feel good" Spade whispered, this made Nate's cock to pulsate, something he'd never experienced in his life before.
In fact a lot of things he was feeling now, were things he'd never felt before, hence why they were all strange to him.

Spade leaned in a pecked his lips, moving away again, he looked at Nate
"I'm going to touch you, can I"? He asked, this made Nate's heart to swell.

The fact that Spade was giving him the choice to decide on his own what he wanted, if at all he wanted the man to touch him, he'd never had that before.
The choice to decide, not since Spade stepped into his life.
Even that man had taken his choice away from him.