Spade (MxM)

Chapter 164

                              

It had been over four days since Salvatore walked into his club and killed Greg, four days since he found out the man was responsible for everything that had gone wrong with his business and alliance with other mafia.

And he still had no lead, not even on police radar, everything was just radio silence and it was killing him, it was driving him  uts because he couldn't stand it.

He felt incompetent and completely useless, what use was the power he had if he couldn't even use it to save the man he loved, of course it was pointless.

Nate was out there going through God knows what and he was just there, doing nothing about it.
He ran his hands down his face as he let out a deep breath.

He grabbed the glass on his table wanting to drink it's content, only to realize it was empty, he looked at it and frowned before he looked at the bottle of whiskey on his table, it was also completely finished, he sighed out, he didn't want to leave the bed to go get another whiskey and he needed another bottle, to drown the pain inside of him.

To lessen the guilt that was eating deep inside his heart.
He wanted to numb the pain, to go back to how he used to be before he met Nate, but it wasn't that easy.

It wasn't a switch he could turn off once turned on, not when Nate had made him feel, had made him know and see what it was like to feel things.

He sat on the bed, resting his head on his palms as he groaned out, his hair was a mess as it had grown over the last couple of weeks, some were even going haywire as they fell on his face

He heard his door opened up and he didn't bother looking up, instead he just stayed there as he heard footsteps, until he saw from between his palms bright light illuminating his room.

"This place smells like crap" Matteo's voice made him slowly open his face and eyes as he looked at the blonde who was moving away from the window he just opened, he groaned as the light hit his face
"And you look like shit" he added, making Spade to just give him a blank look

He stopped at the table where the bottle of whiskey and glass was, he scanned the empty bottle, his eyes resting on the half smoked cigarettes there as he frowned and scrunched up his nose, before looking at Spade and cocking his brows.

"What do you want Matteo"? He asked, his groggy and croaky voice making the blonde to snicker as he gave Spade a ridiculous look

"First of all, how long are you going to keep being like this? And second you haven't left this room in days, even Su is worried about you, she's been asking me to bring her to you..." Spade quickly cuts him off

"I don't want to see her, or anyone"

"Why? Spade, you can't keep doing this to yourself, it's not helping anyone" matter said softly

"What do you want me to tell her Matteo, that I haven't been able to find Nate? It's been six days now, and that's talking about when we found out, we don't know how long he'd been missing before we realized it, and you want me to see her, when I can't find him? What kind of a Don would that make me? What kind of a boyfriend would that make me"? He asked, his voice sounding almost desperate and filled with despair "I know, an incompetent one, Matteo I can't even find Nate in this city, I can't save the man I love" he voiced out in a whisper

This made Matteo to just sighed out as he moved to the side of Spade on the bed, plopping down on it, he interlocks his fingers together, while looking at the space in front of him

"Spade no one is thinking you're incompetent, you're trying your best and everybody sees it, doing this won't help you or Nate, locking yourself up.... Spade was quick to cut him off

"No, you don't get it, it's all my fault" he whispered looking at Matteo "I pushed him away, I said things to him that I should never have said, and now he's gone and I can't take it back" he said, his voice shaky at the end and his eyes showing just how much pain he was feeling.

All Nate wanted was for Spade to just listen to him, and he didn't.
"If I had stayed one more minute to listen to him, he'd still be here"

Matteo sucked on his inner cheek "Spade it's not your fault, you have to stop blaming yourself"

"It's my fault Matteo, and Nate will never forgive me, I turned my back on him because I was blinded by rage, and now he's out there suffering" Spade whispered out, his eyes looked as if he wanted to cry, but there were no tears in them, just a huge lump that he swallowed before looking away from Matteo

The blonde sighed out, before placing his hands on Nate's thighs, giving it a gentle squeeze "Spade, Nate will forgive you, he's a very kind hearted person and I don't think he's going to blame you for what happened, you have to stop blaming yourself and let me tell you why I came here" Matteo told him, he swallowed again before he nodded, waiting for the blonde to talk.

He just wanted Matteo to talk and leave him alone, it wasn't like he was truly going to stop blaming himself, because he knew it was his fault, and the only way to supress this guilt inside of him was to keep telling himself that it was his fault, if he didn't push Nate away, he'd have noticed when the young man was taken.

"The van we were told circled Nate's apartment right before he was taken was spotted somewhere outside town today" Matteo said, making Spade to turn abruptly to look at him, his eyes showing complete interest and a little bit of hope.

"Are you sure"? He asked and Matteo just nodded

"Affirmative, it was the same van, same number, color and it was seen at an abandoned building" Matteo explained, seeing the array of hope in Spade's eyes as his grey eyes lit up

"Where"? He asked

"Around one of the docks Liam used to own which now belongs to his uncle, the building is just opposite the dock, it's well hidden and can only be seen upon close inspection" Matteo explained band Spade was quick to get up from the bed.

This kind of made Matteo to feel a tad bit happy, he hadn't seen Spade like this since Nate went missing.
"Gather everyone, and while you're at it place a call across to Stefano" Spade said, immediately causing Matteo to frown remembering he hadn't seen Stefano since that day at Spade's gym

"What are you going to do"? Matteo's asked, making Spade stop halfway through the bathroom, he turned and looked at Matteo

"I'm going to get my boyfriend back" he said with so much determination in his voice, for once since four days he was finding a flicker of hope Inside of him, and he wanted to nurture it and make it grow because wherever Nate was, he needed that.

Matteo just nodded while he walked into the bathroom, shutting the door, he began with his hair first, he'd trim the crazy edges and then he'd take care of his beards and get a good shower, he looked homeless

Hold on Nate, I'm coming for you, he had thought to himself as he started on his hair
He was determined that he'd get Nate back, and this time it was stronger, he felt it in his bones that he'd get Nate back.

And he was going to need all the help he could get.

Alright, I hope they get Nate back too 😩

Hold on Nate, we're coming for you 😩

I'll have to stop here for tonight, apparently my phone is draining fast😩😩, which is super annoying.

But I promise by tomorrow, you'll have the complete chapter of Spade uploaded 😜😜