UNEXPECTEDLY (Privileged series #1)

Lutang akong bumaba kanina at lutang din akong kumakain ngayon. Kasama ko si Lolo pero wala sakanya yung atensyon ko. Hindi din kasi tumawag kahapon si Khiana kaya nakakapagtaka, pero kaya akong sobrang lutang ngayon ay dahil kay Dia. Kasalanan toh ni Dia.

After the deep talk Dia gave me last night. I couldn't sleep properly. Ano nga ba si Kian sa akin? Do I see him only as a friend or a potential lover? Honestly I can't judge my feelings right now. Sobrang dami ko munang kailangang i-consider if I let myself fall again for the second time.

Hanggat hindi ko nakakausap si Kyle about dun sa ginawa nya 1 month ago, I can't sorted out my feelings. I atleast want to hear his side pero hindi ngayon. Kapag kontrol ko na yung emosyon ko pag nakikita ko sya. Don't get me wrong I don't want to get back at him. Gusto ko lang talagang malaman kung bakit nya nagawa yon. Para malaman ko kung bakit nawala yung anak ko. But his words and reason won't justifies anything.

But if ever I saw him... I want to ask for an explanation. I want to have my peace of mind back.

Nang malaman ni Dad yung nangyari about that incident. Sobrang disappointed sya sa akin. But I was mentally drained that time to care. Nung nalalaman naman ni Lolo yung nangyari tumawag sya and he let me cry my heart's out. Kaya medyo okay na ako nung umuwi ako dito sa Baguio.

"...air"

"Blair!" Napaigtad ako sa gulat ng sumigaw si Lolo para makuha yung atensyon ko. Napangiwi ako ng makita syang tumawa dahil don.

"Lo?!"

"Ang lalim ng iniisip mo ah, hindi ko masisisid." Natatawa nyang ani.

He's being playful again.

"Anyway besides dyan sa iniisip mo, nabalitaan kong magkasama kayo ni Cyrus kahapon." He shot me a knowing look. "And it's your day off yesterday."

"Inaya lang po ako ni Kian kahapon na manood ng movie." Saad ko. "May binigay daw kasing free movie ticket yung kaibigan nya."

"And he invited you of all people?" Interesado nyang tanong.

"There's two tickets in his possession that's why Kian invited me."

"He can invite anyone but he invited you." Nakangisi nyang sabi. "And the free time he has yesterday, he spend it on you?"

Tumango nalang ako, why does it feels like kausap ko si Dia instead of him.

"Parehas kami ng galawan ng batang yon ah, I know what he's after." He said while smiling from ear to ear and eat right after.

Hindi ko naman maintindihan yung sinabi nya. What does he mean by that? Nakita ko namang biglang nangunot ang noo nya tsaka tumingin sa akin.

"You've been calling him 'Kian', you call him by that name?" Nagtaka naman ako dahil sa tanong nyang yon.

"Yes?" Alinlangan kong sagot at nakita ko ulit ang pagbabago ng mukha nya na parang may nalaman syang nakakatuwa. "Am I not allowed to?"

"Everyone call him Cyrus." He commented while looking at the food infront of him.

I tilt my head in confusion, anong pinaparating ni Lolo?

"He doesn't want to be called by his second name, do you know why?" I shake my head at hindi ko parin alam kung gusto nyang iparating. "He said it sounds like a child's name."

Child's name? Ang cute kaya. Kung ayaw nyang tinatawag sa ganong pangalan bakit wala syang sinasabi hanggang ngayon? Ang tagal ko na syang tinawag sa ganong pangalan.

"That's why he doesn't like to be called by the name 'Kian'," Sumubo sya ng pagkain pagkatapos nyang sabihin yon.

"But when I call him by that name he didn't say anything. I've been calling him that since the beginning i've mer him." Lalong lumawak yung ngiti nya ng dahil sa sinabi ko at hindi ko alam ang dahilan kung bakit.