The Burned Dragon ~ Daenerys Targaryen

82. Trance like sadness

Jon thought it would be a good idea to put a hand on Daenerys's shoulder like they where old friends but he was pushed back by Sansa which shocked him only to be told off by Robb.
"Touch our queen again and you won't have hands"
Jon was feeling like an outside by his own family so he stomped out making the room feel lighter as Sansa was holding Daenerys hand in support.

They watch Melisandre mutter things over and over again yet not once anything happens making not only the people become frustrated but also the witch herself.
Melisandre could feel tears prickle her eyes in desperation, frustration and guilt.
Hours pass and only Sansa and Daenerys where in the room with Melisandre who wasn't giving up trying everything including her own blood and Daenerys.

To Daenerys's everything felt like a nightmare.
The people moving around her weren't even there for her as she was only focused on Visenya and baleria outside screeching painfully making it even more real that her wife was most likely death.
It felt like a constant panic attack inside her yet her body didn't move.
Her breath didn't change.
Nothing changed.

Daenerys was afraid to touch Visenya again because the last time she did the woman was warm.
She wasn't hot like she always was no... she was warm like Sansa's hand in hers.
Beside her a voice brought her out of her trance.
It was bran being wheeled in by Robb followed by Talisa with cregan in her arms.
The little boy saw Visenya and immediately started to get fussy in her mothers arms to touch Visenya and Talisa looked at Daenerys for permission who nodded numbly.
Cregan was rubbing his face on Visenya's hand while giggling making the air feel lighter even to Daenerys who was now aware of the situation around her.

Bran was the first to speak.
"She was stabbed but threw her sword when she saw the night king about to throw a deadly spear into Drogon"
His voice made Daenerys sick alongside his words.
Visenya always protecting others is beginning to get on Daenerys nerves but she also knew that without the need to protect it wouldn't be the same Visenya she loved.
"I need a moment"
At that Daenerys walked out throwing up right into the first bowl she found and stumbled into her chambers she shared with Visenya.

The tears freely fall down her face as she laid on Visenya's side of the bed.
It was like her heart was ripped from her body.
The thought of living without Visenya felt wrong like it wasn't meant to be.
For a long time she laid there and not once did the screeching of the dragon stop which in some way comforted her so with one move she put on her thick coat and walked out to the dragons even if she saw Brienne and Lucifer following her she didn't care.

The air was cold but not like the days before.
It was like a normal harsh winter.
The dragons grew quite when they saw their mother walking to them with a teary face.
She fell into baleria's warm body which she found very comforting as it was the same warmth Visenya normally had.
Brienne and Lucifer where watching her not knowing what they can do for their Queen they barely know.
Visenya was a important person to everyone yet only Daenerys was the one Visenya could open up to.

Daenerys looked at the dragons seeing rheagal looking angry, Viserion looked sad, Baleria was looking devastated and Drogon he looked guilty.
Daenerys knew it was him who Visenya saved yet he never showed kindness to her which made even the most angry dragon feel guilty and everyone around could see it.
One by one Daenerys cuddled them basking in the warmth they hold while the love in her heart warms a bit up seeing her children are so connected to her wife.

Daenerys was sitting with them for some time before she began to realize that something was missing.
Something that was important to her wife.
With new found strength Daenerys got on Drogon who was confused yet ready and Brienne was getting anxious about the leaving Queen alongside Lucifer.
They where about to ask where she was going when the dragon took off making them watch for a moment before going inside telling Robb who was writing to kings landing informing Alys about her sister.

Drogon took a bit longer then baleria would have take but finally he arrived at the same wall that was about to get climbed by the white walkers only a night before.
He let Daenerys down on her command and with that she began to search trought the bones, clothes, swords and snow for dark sister the only thing Visenya carried with her since she was a child.

Daenerys was growing sick seeing how many white walkers seemed to been here last night and imagine Visenya all alone fighting for her life.
The sun crossed the sky what felt like a minute but Daenerys was there the whole day trying to find the Valyrian steel sword.
Even her dragon tried to get her attention but it was to no avail as she was in a trance like state trying to find the object she desperately needed.

Her body was growing weaker.
Her stomach was killing her as it made her feel sick and she wasn't sure if it was because she actually felt sick or because she hasn't eaten in nearly two days as she spend the whole day on Visenya's side and then the whole next day by the wall.
Drogon would sometimes spray fire near her to keep her warm which was a success but she moved so fast he had to do it over and over again.
He brought her some animals he found but she just walked past it making him frustrated yet he never flew away.

Just as the sun began to come up again she saw the large red spot in the snow which made her run to it tearing up again imagine her wife bleeding out alone in the cold with no one by her side.
As she was looking around she saw not far away the sword she was searching for and nearly collapsed as she finally held it.
It was like only now everything crashed down on her as she broke down with the sword in her lap.
She screamed and cried so loud her voice echoed against the wall and back to her which made her cry harder.

Drogon had enough and laid down beside her and tugged on her dress to get on which after a few minutes she complied with the sword tightly wrapped around a piece of cloth she found and pressed against her body.
The way to Winterfell she didn't even register but when Talisa and Sansa helped her down the dragon who allows it she realized that she was back in safety making her body relax and give out as just like her wife she was carried in by a stark and to the maester.
=======================

Authors note:
I kinda liked what I did with the white walker story as I found the whole story in the tv show so dumb for killing off half the characters and we all know after this the wall would never be build up again including Winterfell would have never looked so okay after this war.
Love you sexy bitches <3

~1872 words~