After Transmigrating into a book, I Was Played By a Black Lotus

Chapter 80 Duel Timeline

Bai Xiying sighed and turned back: "Actually, it's that I feel insecure; I need to get engaged to fill that insecurity."

Lin Xingzhu shook her head, clearly pointing out the issue: "The problem now isn't the engagement; it's where your insecurity comes from."

Bai Xiying looked at her: "The source of my insecurity is you."

"Me?" Lin Xingzhu furrowed her brow, thinking back, "I haven't done anything recently?"

They had always been harmonious, rarely arguing, with only lighthearted debates over food preferences. Those were just the quirks of a couple, not something that would create insecurity.

Bai Xiying said, "Think harder."

As Lin Xingzhu thought, her mind went back to Bai Xiying's earlier comment about her being "too excellent." She frowned.

"...That can't be," Lin Xingzhu said.

Bai Xiying looked at her with a smile.

Seeing this, Lin Xingzhu furrowed her brow and said, "You're also an exceptional person. I believe my abilities would only attract your interest, not make you feel insecure."

"Otherwise, we wouldn't have gotten together in the first place."

Lin Xingzhu remembered their back-and-forth verbal sparring when they were testing each other and recalled how Bai Xiying had never hidden her intelligence or felt inferior in confrontations.

This emotion might be normal for others, but it shouldn't be present in Bai Xiying.

Seeing her certainty, Bai Xiying smiled: "Didn't you say that sometimes you like to go to the temple to light incense? Then you must have heard the Buddhist saying: 'Desire leads to suffering; without desire, one is strong.'"

Lin Xingzhu paused, surprised.

"From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear. If one is free from love, there is no sorrow and no fear," Bai Xiying murmured. "When I didn't like you, I was naturally confident and strong. But once I developed feelings for you, my heart became uncontrollable."

No matter how capable someone is, when it comes to emotions, they can't always retreat unscathed.

Lin Xingzhu suddenly understood.

"...Is it really about me?" she said softly.

She had never intended to make Bai Xiying feel insecure or uneasy in this relationship.

Bai Xiying looked into her clear eyes: "Yes, but seeing your reaction now, I'm feeling a bit irritated."