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Severus and I have been talking again. But only as friends. I didn't mind, but I would be lying if I'd say that I would think back to that night during winter break often. Almost too often. But I am nonetheless happy to be talking with him often.

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Today, I had two classes in the morning then it was lunch time. Ugh I love lunch. It makes me stuff my face with the food that all the elves prepare for us. Did I ever mention how I sometimes go down to the kitchen where all of the castle's elves work? I got very close to most of them. I respect the elves very much, as other witches and wizards usually don't. Which pissed me off. But whatever.

After lunch, I didn't have another class until later that afternoon so I decided to go to the professor lounge and get some coffee. Coffee can be drank at anytime of the day. You cannot convince me otherwise.

When I got in, I wasn't the only professor in there. As I saw Minerva sitting down reading the newspaper and cringing.

"What you reading there?" I said to her as I made my way to the coffee maker.

"Oh just some reckless writing from Rita Skeeter. That woman knows how to lie through and through. I just don't see how people can read this rubbish." She said annoying, and threw the paper on the table in front of her.

I giggled in response and said "well I always found it hard to believe and knew she was lying, but I understand how people read that." I said motioning to the paper she threw down.

"Oh yeah? Enlighten me." She said to me turning to me crossing her arms.

"It's because people want to feel bad for the people who she writes stories about. It makes them feel less bad about their lives. It's pretty sad actually." I explained while making my coffee.

"Hm. That makes sense. This world is a very sad place, but those who we surround ourselves with makes it worth living." She said smiling at me.

I couldn't agree more.

"Minerva, I have a question for you."

"What is it dear?"

At this point, it was only me and her in the lounge and I sat next to her with my coffee.

"How come Severus pushes those away who tend to get close to him? It's almost like everytime I think we are getting closer, he pushes me away, or just stops talking to me."  I asked with my brows furrowed together.

"Oh my dear. Severus has been like that since he was a boy. And it has only gotten worse as he has had many loses in his life. As have you." She said reaching out to hold my hand for comfort, as she saw the distress across my face.

It really upset me how I have to be hesitant with my words around him because I don't want to push too hard that pushes him away.

"I know. But I just want to be there for him. He never lets me." I said looking down at my coffee.