Vent (Will Always Keep Going..)

God I fucking hate my dad.. Today he tried to blame my BROTHER. For ME Self harming-! WHO DOES THAT? HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING IN MY HEAD OR AT ALL. BECAUSE HE IS ONE PERSON, WITH ONE MIND. AND THAT IS HIMSELF. NOBODY ELSE. I'm so fucking upset right now. I mean.. It's just fucking DISGUSTING that he said that.. Absolutely god damn VIAl. I mean, the damn AUDACITY, to say that.. Now, my brother Was cutting at the time, but that was after I had started cutting. And, I didn't know about it until I got out of the mental hospital.. (See more info on the hospital in the next 'chapter' btw!) So I mean, fucking crazy.. And a bit before that, we were talking about how my brother would like to identify as male, since he's trans, and my father refused to call him male, because he said that " Oh! Trans people had a much higher suicide rate because their trans and plus, (dead name 3:) shouldn't be male because they like girly things like books and the colour purple!" I didn't respond at the time because I didn't want to have that conversation at all cause I was uncomfortable with it.. But GUESS WHAT DUMBASS? IT'S CAUSE NOBODY SUPPORTS THEM! AND BECAUSE THE TRANS-, AND LGBTQ+ IN GENERAL ARE SHAMED! AND NOT CONSIDERED NORMAL, AND HUMANE, AND WEIRD! BECAUSE THOSE PEOPLE CHOOSE TO IDENTIFY DIFFERENT, AND LOOK DIFFERENT, AND LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE.. That's why! God it's so damn upsetting.. Another thing is that I scratch and bite at myself all the time when I'm really anxious or nervous, and he says that that's not true... But once again.. YOU. ARE. NOT. ME.... I have literally torn my skin open and it has bled for almost an HOUR  from me scratching at my hands.. Like.. HELLO? EARTH TO YOU-? Another thing is that when he had custody over me and my older brother, he would be gone for most of the day out at garage sales with nobody home but us, and when they were home, they were in their bedroom playing on their Xbox.. (By they I mean him and my stepmom by the way!) Speaking of my stepmom, I really love herd she doesn't deserve to be with my dad she's honestly really sweet, but just a lil dumb.. But aren't we all?