Questions The Nerd Got Wrong... #Wattys2016

Chap.11

Walking into class I found that the big six was already there and watching me. Frowning slightly I start walking to my desk ,but the teachers voice stops me

"Ah, Miss Blaze how kind of you to join us"
'What?! I'm not late! I have never been late to class before!'
Thats why the big six are here! I'M the one who's late today "So-sor-ry Ma'am, I must have lost track of time" I tried to explain. She put her hand up and waved her hand telling me to sit down. Taking me seat I thought one thing...

'This is gonna be one long day'

Walking out of my last period. I headed home with no one stoping me.

Once I was home I went and laid on my bed and thought about the things I wanna forget. I know, I know... Why think about it if you wanna forget? Well, that's a good question... I wanna be true to myself.

So I'm gonna start from my birth... I would like to think that I'm an only child ,but that is far from true.

You see I three others siblings. Two older and two younger. They didn't live with mom and dad. They oldest-or my brother Alec- is 23. He took my sister and little brother once he was 18 and they live together.

I didn't go because my parents wouldn't allow it. They said that Alec cant take all of us. so after lots of thinking and crying. I was the one left behind.

I wasn't able to keep in touch because of my parents and for a long Time I hated them.

My brothers and sister left because they didn't like the fact that they were always working. Never home, and never spending time with all of us.

Hell, I don't even know if they know that mom and dad are gone. I would hope that if they did they would reach out to me ,but then again... They did leave everything to me.

They have no reason to ever want to see me again. Anyway, I lost my virginity at 13. Yes, 13... It, was around the time That Alec left.

All a wanted was someone to show me love. Anyone to show me they cared. That's how I met Keith. He was my first everything ,and I thought I was in love.

Then he dumped me the same night we did 'it'. Leaving me hurt in more ways then one. That's not even the worst part...

He treated me like he didn't know me once we broke up. Like we never even looked each others way.

anytime I Talked to him he always asked who I was and why I was talking to him. His friends knew the truth, yet they laughed with them. Then he started bullying me.

Calling me a 'slut' 'whore' 'hoe' 'trash' anything you can thing of. he said so many bad things I became terrified of him.

Cowered every time someone said his name. I had started believing it, Believing all the horrible things he said about me.

That made me start cutting...

It was so bad that I did it for every letter and every word. I didn't cut deep, so it left no scar. I was so weak and such a cowered I can't even believe that was me only a few years ago.

It all ended when Keith left. He was sent to boarding school by his parents. Keith was known as the 'bad boy player' then.

The big six didn't come till I was 14. Things still hadn't gotten better so I fell in with the wrong people.
Did drugs and drunk all the time.

It wasn't until my father caught me with a blunt to my lips and disappointment in his eyes that I stopped.

I always did love my father slightly more then my mom. My dad taught me how to fight. Thought me what it meant to have the Blaze name.

So at school I went from 'soon to be drop out' to nerd. No one seems to remember me as the rebel I was.

They still bullied me ,but just not as much. Now this brings me to when I was 15. I had started fighting again; trying to fix the mess I had made in my life.

It wasn't till the officers told me I no longer had parents that I realized I have to live up to the Blaze name.

I bought my pent house and kept my grades up so I wouldn't be put in foster care. Every thing was going great till the big six showed up in my life.

I sat up from my pillow to feel the cold air hit my face. I looked down at my pillow to see a wet spot the size of Africa. I didn't even know I was crying.

I didn't get to think about every thing ,but it still helped. Suddenly feeling sleepy I lade down on my tear soaked pillow and went to sleep
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Waking up five times last night is not how I wanted to sleep. Its been a long time since I had that many nightmares in one night.
'This is why I don't think about it'
Going to the bath room I looked in the mirror to see that the bags under my eyes were dark and puffy red from crying.

Not Caring today-like at all- I got dressed and headed out for school.
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All day people have been looking at me like I have grown a third head
'Which I would believe if someone told me 'cause thats how I feel right now'

It wasn't until The big six pulled me into a empty classroom that I started to care.
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THERE IS CHAPTER 11!!!! IM GLAD TO SAY THAT I MAY BE ABLE TO POST MORE!!!!!!! YAYYYYYY!!! ANYWAY>> THATS IT!!! SO....
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