Too Blind To See {One Direction}

Song: "In Case" by Demi Lovato

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Niall's POV

I had seen them leave. Big suitcases, car fully packed, She in His arms. They had left off to whatever they left off to. 

I hadn't known She had chosen Him. But observing the scene it was obvious She was His. I guess, He holding Her with His arms tightly wrapped around her waist and giving Her a long and clearly loving kiss on her beautiful lips, was an onbvious sign for everyone.

Even for me. My heart wants Her, it can't believe I had let Her slip right out of my arms, and is still hoping on the one thing it still exists for. 

Her.

That's all what my heart says, screaming actually. My heart was screaming "Grace!" at the top of it's lungs. The lungs which it doesn't have.

My head wants Her, can't believe it either and doesn't understand it, still hoping for Her to turn back and accept the embrace of my arms, but it's not just hoping. It's making plans, plans to win Her back, plans which I've tried laready, plans which didn't work and won't ever work.

Every piece of my body wants Her securily in my arms. They  want Her to be mine again, for Her to forgive me for the stupidest mistake I made in my life.

But now She had left, in His arms. They had left with Liam and Her sister Noa. 

I wish I could just go up to Her and tell Her how I feel, what my heart wants, what my head wants, what every piece of my body wants. But it'll hurt Her.

I wish I could just tell Her I'll be waiting here.

It's sad She was too blind to see I was never going to hurt Her again. That I was going to keep Her safe, love Her like no one would. She didn't see it, and I will have to live with it.

I was still sitting in my car staring at the spot where She had been standing, in His arms.

I took out a piece of paper and a pen and started writing. I left it in Liam's letterbox and drove away in my car back home. I was going to start preparing myself for a life without Her.

Grace,

I'll be waiting for you, right here.

I'll be waiting here in case you're looking in that mirror one day and miss my arms. How they're wrapped around your waist.

I'm weak enough to need you, but cared enough to let you walk away.

So I'll let you walk away. Go live life, enjoy it. I wish I could make sure you won't get hurt, but that is up to Zayn now, and I guess I will have to trust him on that.

I'll let you walk away and live the life you deserve, you deserve the happiest life there is.

Love,

still your Niall, hopefully not forever your Niall.