Never Changed

Ah, Come On!

"Pip squeet"

"Baby"

"No one will help you"

"Friends help friends, too bad you dont have any"

"No one will ever like you"

"You are pathetic"

"A disgrace"

"Why do you let yourself live knowing how unneeded you are?"

"Get out before we make you"

"Had enough?!"

"Just give up!"

"Give up, you're never going to succeed. Ever"

"You can forget the rest of your life, we'll always be right here"

"E?" I snap away from my thoughts.

"They don't really say anything. It's usually just hits" again another lie. What? It's been longer than 5 minutes.

"Today we stop them. Ok?" He asks. Now I think about it. Stopping them would be heaven. Maybe I would be normal if they hadn't been so....

I think back to a time before Luis~

I pull the blade down my rough skin. The cuts burn, but I'm ok, knowing it will all be over soon. Crimson lines run on my arms, like rivers of red. Black spots cloud my vision as I watch the blood drip to the floor.

I really need to stop thinking about that. It's all over. It might as well had never happenes. I wish my parents thought the same way.

I really should stop thinking about this stuff~

"We are not going to live with a suicidal homo freak" my mom slams the door in my face. Great. Depressed, alone, abused, and homeless.

I feel tears running down my face. I wipe them away quickly and look back up at Luis. He made everything ok.
.......

"Ok, walk me to your locker" He insists. I pick up my stuff and walk towards my locker.

"This is a bad idea, you should just go" I run my hands down his arms, signaling I didn't want him to get hurt.

"But-"

"Luis. I'll meet you at your place, ok?" He nods. "Just go" I shove him lightly, he doesn't move at first but soon walks away slowly.

"So your not alone. Im surprised E" I turn around to get a fist to the gut. I get on my knees and sit in the corner. I get stomped on, over and over.

The pain bring tears to my eyes. "Bye E, we gotta go" they pull me up and push me hard into the metal locker door. I slowly sit back down. This is just fantastic.

It's all just fantastic.
........

I walk up to the door, making sure none of the bruises were visible. I knock.

"Hey E" He pulls me inside.

"Hey Luis" I say, sitting down on the couch.

He grabs my hand, "You shoulda let me stop them. You know i could."

I grip his hand, "You cant fight 4 people by yourself"

"One day, you'll be big and strong and successful and they'll look up to you, wishing they had treated you better" his words were always so sweet, but the bitter taste of words said in the past cancel them out.