Rejecting the Alpha

Chapter Twenty-nine

After kissing for a while, I decided that we should probably stop. He went to the Pack house probably to straighten up. I contemplated going with him because my make up was probably smeared but I feared that we probably wouldn't be straightening up.

I went to the drinks and got myself some water.

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*Parker Mason*

I leaned against the sink deep in thought.

I still couldn't believe that Jasmine had kissed me. It was amazing. The way she took control was pretty hot. What made her do it?

I couldn't get the image of Jasmine pushing me against the wall. She's so strong. She does have Beta blood and she is made to be a Luna. She'll make a perfect Luna, too.

My Luna.

My wolf was pretty excited the whole time. I didn't know what to do. The whole time I was worried I'd do something wrong like: 'What if I bite her tongue? ','What if my breath smells bad?' or 'What if I drop her?' I guess all these thoughts are all normal to those who are kissing someone for the first time.

My eyes landed on the red spots on my neck from Jasmine's lipstick. How can she be so beautiful without even trying? I ran two fingers across it and shivered as it still was tingling from her lips.

I rubbed my face and neck with water but I couldn't get rid of the feeling of her lips on me. If kissing felt so good, I couldn't imagine what marking or mating would feel like. I was happy that Jasmine gets to mark me. Alpha's are gifted that they are able to experience the pleasure of being marked, every other male was not able to. Fully mating is a whole different story.

Zander told me its the best feeling in the world. I sometimes envy his relationship with his mate. If I hadn't been such an asshole and didn't let lust get in the way, Jasmine and I could've had a relationship like that. I don't blame Jasmine for pushing me away but I do blame myself. She's been through a lot, so have I, but what happened to her isn't something anyone would want to experience. My heart ached at her pain.

I didn't know much about love but I was still capable of learning. I wanted to learn but I didn't know how. The walls that I had build up was slowly falling apart just because of my mate. I didn't know if it was a good thing or bad thing. I just didn't want to lose her, too.

After my mother had died, I had no one to love me. My father hated me, my pack hated me, I even thought that my mate would hate me as soon as I found her. I had thought about my mate all the time wondering what she would be like.

My mother would tell me stories about how her and my father met. Of course me, being the boy I was, would always complain. But I enjoyed how happy she was telling them.

I ran my fingers through my hair trying to tame it. I smoothed out my shirt before exiting the bathroom. I decided to go back to the party.

What I didn't know was if Jasmine and I were supposed to act like it didn't happen. I was drawn from my thoughts when a hand clamped down on my back.

"Hey, man. Where've you been?" Zander asked as he handed me a cup of soda. I gladly took it and took a swig of it.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I had to use the restroom," I half lied. Zander narrowed his eyes at me as he observed my face. He looked suspicious but didn't say anything.

Jonas and Zander talking to me but I wasn't paying attention. My eyes were locked on Jasmine's form as she chatted with the Sarina girl and that guy.

My hands clenched at the thought of her and that guy having a past. Did they have a past? It didn't take a smart person to know that he has feelings for her.