One of a Kind

Chapter 37: "Date"

"Evie, you're not. I love you, more than anything in the world, I wish you could see that," he admits, face is sullen.

I sigh, feeling tears stinging my eyes, "If you love me so much, then...go to Sarah."

"What?" He asks.

I nod because if I spoke my voice would probably crack, "Go to Sarah, raise that child, be the best father you can be, and help her. We might've thought we could be forever and always but that changes now. We can't be together, not when you have a family, and that family isn't with me. So go, be with her, a father impacts a child's life more than you think."

He closes his eyes and nods, "I understand, and I promise I'll talk to Sarah, I'll try to be the man you want me to be, but I have to ask, is there any hope for us?"

I don't even have to think about the answer, "No; too much has happened, too much has changed. I will always love you but I can't have you. You have a child that needs your full attention, not a girlfriend."

"I know but maybe when the child is older?"

"And what? Am I supposed to wait for your child to be ten so it can accept me? Am I supposed to wait forever for you to come back to me?"

"I would for you," he admits.

I close my eyes, pushing the tears back, "Jake...I will always love you, you are always going to be my first real love, but this, us, we can't pretend anymore. Our love was real at one point but eventually it faded away, just like now. We're so torn apart that I can't even stitch us back together. But I still see the good person I fell in love with; the guy who was caring and sweet, treated women with respect. Give that to Sarah, give that to your child, be the best man because I can promise you, you won't regret raising a child, but you might regret not raising it."

He nods, "So I guess this is it? The end of Javie? The end of us? All we're left with is what we were and what we could've been."

As much as it pains me to admit, he's right, "Yes."

He shakes his head, "I refuse to believe it."

"I'm sorry, Jake, but you have to believe it. Us, we, you and me, we're done. Javie is over."

He bites his lip and closes his eyes. When he opens his eyes, he comes to me, gripping me in a tight hug, making me hug him back. I don't want him to go but I know he must; I know he has to do the right thing and he will. He pulls back from the hug and lightly kisses my lips, we kiss for a while before I pull away. He smiles at me and brushes my hair back, "Just so you know, I won't ever stop loving you, and if you want us back together, just say and I'll do."

I smile back, "Be a good man Jake."

He hugs me one more time before leaving me in the closet. The door shuts and I stay in there for a little bit before leaving. I am already beyond late for Anatomy, and I really don't have the energy to finish the rest of the day, I think I'll just go to bed.

Many people were still in the halls, including Kiera and her posse. One look at me and she smirks, "So Javie flops."

I don't pay her any attention, knowing if I do I'd just be feeding into her narcissist nature. But she surprises me, "For what it's worth Evie, I'm sorry you guys broke up."

That comment almost makes me stop...almost. I make it into the parking lot and begin walking. The sky looks angry, matching my mood with its dark clouds and sad mood. It doesn't take long before it starts raining and all I could think about was how well it fit into my day so far. But I didn't end up home, somehow I ended up at Young and Bold for the first time alone. Getting a table for myself and ordering my usual, I sit back and watch all the couples around me enjoying themselves. It made me sick honestly but because love disgusted me, but because I had it and lost it. The taste of it forever in my mouth giving me a disgusting aftertaste.