Until The Very End

Chapter 10

My mom hugged me while I was crying. I didn't know what to do. I only realised now how he must have felt when I left him. I can't even imagine happening that to me. He leaving me with saying anything.

Oh God I'm a horrible person...

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I looked at the clock and saw 6 a.m. I slowly stood up and went to my bathroom. When I looked at the mirror I swear I looked like I was in some tornado.

My hair was like a birds nest and my eyes were  bit red and puffy as well as my nose. My cheeks had dried tears on it.

I quickly went under my shower and took a long warm shower. After I finished I went to my closet and took out a black skinny jean and a white thin sweater with a hood which could hide my face a bit. I don't need people staring at me.

I dried my hair and just let it down. I was too tired to do anything with it. I packed my things and found Blake's notebook in between my books. I stared at it and memories from yesterday came back. I put his notebook in my bag and went downstairs.

I found my mom in the kitchen making some pancakes. When she saw me she gave me a little smile and hugged me.

"Hey, sweetheart. How are you?" she asked.

"Well I'm a bit tired." I said and sat down at the dinner table my head on my hands.

"If you don't feel alright then you can stay home." she said with a worried voice.

"No, I'm fine." I said.

When I arrived at my school, I didn't feel like attending class so I went to the fields instead and sat down on my usually spot.
The sun was shining but a cold breeze blow my hair in all directions.

"What should I do..." I mumbled to myself.

Everything is so messed up. Everything was okay until yesterday. I thought meeting my childhood friend will be easy.

However, I never knew that Blake was him. That's why I was so attached to him when I fist saw him.

How I wish I could go back to the time before I left Florida. Everything would have turned okay.

"I'm so stupid." I said and bitterly laughed before a tear slides down my cheek.

"No Elizabeth, you're not stupid." I heard someone saying.

I immediately wiped the tears away before turning around where the voice came from. I saw Chase standing there with a sad smile.

"Seems like Blake told you everything." I said.

He only nodded.

"I just want to tell you that you can't blame Blake. He...well...didn't really had it easy in life." he said.

I looked at him confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't have the right to tell you about it. You have to ask Blake." he said.

"Well, he won't ever tell me about it. Seems like he hates me now." I stated.

"Well, you have to speak with him and clear everything."

"Why are you helping me? I thought you and the others would hate me too. Since Blake surely told you about me..."

"Well, at first I hated you. When Blake told us about you for the first time he had so much hatred in his eyes. That's why we thought you would be some b*tch. But then you came to our school and we didn't even know you. I never thought that you will be that Elizabeth because you told us to call you Beth. You were so nice and friendly. You weren't the girl we imagined you were. Beside after a while I thought you had your own reasons for leaving." he told me.

"Even I didn't know why we left Florida until I was old enough to understand everything..." I said.

"Why did you leave?" he suddenly asked.

Should I tell him?'

I thought for a bit. I shifted in my seat awkwardly.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." Chase said.

You can trust him.

I smiled at him and shook my head.

"No, it's okay. It's not like I will lose something."

I sighed before I spoke up.

"I have an illness." I said.

He didn't say anything so I continued.

"I...I have a heart disease and won't be around for long..."