Oops? ? Zouis Talik

Chapter Eleven

"He hasn't showed up to pick up the boys yet, Lou. He was supposed to be there last night but he didn't show up and he wasn't answering my mums calls so she called me at fucking five a.m. thinking something awful had happened to him but that wasn't the case at all. I called him and he said he extended his Ghana trip three more days so he won't be back until the day before we get back from this promo tour. So I'm just gonna have then stay at Donyia's until I get back. But, wouldn't he think that it was important to call and tell me that? The boys and I rely on him and he just wasn't gonna call? Then he said he doesn't understand why my mum even works since I put money in her account every week. What the fuck does that have to do with anything? He's being an arsehole today and I can't fucking figure out why!?"

Louis sat there slowly patting Zayn's thigh letting him rant, letting him get it all out. After a while Zayn's breathing finally evened out and Louis pulled him into his chest and ran a hand softly up and down his back, he had something to say and it was now or never.

"Zayn, babe. Does he always do stuff like this?"

"No. He's usually good about his trips and when he has to pick up the boys. Lately... just the last few times... I don't know, it feels, I guess his trips have been a lot of work. Yeah that's it." Zayn rambled trying to find excuses for Alex rather than admit what he really thought, how he's felt since the Christmas party last year. 

"That's bullshit Zayn and you know it." Louis spat a bit harsher than he intended but he needed to get his point across. 

"What the fuck would you know about how a relationship is supposed to work, aren't you the king of running out on people?"

By this point Zayn was no longer cuddled against Louis chest, he was staring straight ahead with his knees pulled in to his chest, while Louis was seated criss-crossed facing him.

"You right, I probably don't how a proper relationship is supposed to be but I sure as fuck know when someone is lying. Deep down you know it to!"

"No i don't Alex has done nothing but be an amazing person to me and to my kids. He's raising two fucking kids that aren't even his but he loves them just the same!" 

Louis was getting so worked up over the obvious bullshit Zayn was trying to spin to make it seem like Alex was perfect that he didn't even realize Zayn said that Damian and Elijah weren't Alex's. Zayn had only ever told Liam that the twins weren't Alex's so spilling it to Louis in the middle of an argument was a big deal that neither of them noticed... not yet anyway.

"No, if he was raising those kids like his own he would be there exactly at the time he was meant to! He wouldn't have them waiting out on the sidewalk for him until they realized he wasn't gonna show!" Louis yelled his anger finally bubbling to the surface

"They weren't on the fucking sidewalk Louis! Chill out, you're always so fucking dramatic!" 

"It's a figure of fucking speech Zayn! Now you tell me they way he's acting right now doesn't remind you of my shit behavior towards the end of everything? I fucking treated you like dirt but you made up every excuse in the book for me! Tell me that's not what you're doing for him? He might not be as bad as I am but fuck Zayn just... fuck. Okay I need to say this." Louis grabbed Zayn's arm to make him turn and face him so that they were eye to eye "Just let me get this all out before you say anything, yeah?"  

Zayn nodded moving so that he was in a comfortable position facing Louis trying to keep his face emotionless. Louis' words were getting to him, he knew they were some what true, he just wasn't ready to admit it yet. 

"When I first saw you... it was crazy to see you smiling because of him. Liam said he made you feel incredible but I didn't wanna hear about it 'cos I was the idiot that hurt you and let you go." Louis paused to place his hands on his shoulders. "I don't know, maybe I was... no, I am jealous. But Zayn, he's making the same mistakes I did and I want you to promise that when you realize what he's doing that you'll leave. That you won't stick around and put up with his bullshit like you did mine.  You deserve so much more than that Zayn, more than what he's giving you and more than what I gave you. You deserve to have someone get you flowers just because and run you a damn bath when you get home from working with rude annoying celebrities like me all day. You deserve someone who will raise your kids like they are truly theirs, fuck Zayn you deserve to be truly happy. You know that right?"