Have to Let You Go

Okay in fairness kinilig ako. 🤗 Pero Thirdy, bakit? Bakit mo nagawang i-tweet iyan. Gulong gulo nanaman ko. Naalala ko bigla yung sabi sa akin ni Jia, "Bea, it's time na mag-move on ka na. Alam kong hindi madali pero ganito ha, pag may nakita or naramdaman kang sign na 'o ito na, ito na ang sign na kalimutan ko yung lintek na thirdy na yan. there are other fish in the sea who are more deserving.' yan yan ibig sabihin, it's time na. Ready ka na dapat.'

Jia was right. Ito na yung sign. It's time na. Walang nang arte arte. Let him go na Bea. Kahit mahirap, kahit ang sakit, you have to let him go.

(T)

"Pre matatawa ka sa twitter. Buksan mo"

"Thirds, open twitter."

"Bro, tingnan mo twitter mo bilis.

Huh? Bakit ko bubuksan ang twitter ko? Ganoon pa rin naman. Ang labo.

Billie ❤️ calling...

"Hey Babe. Are you okay?? Wala kang sagot sa mga text ko."

"Yea Bills, I'm fine sorry natulog ako e."

"Oh okay. Nag-twitter ka na ba?" 

Ha? Pati siya?? Ano bang meron sa twitter ko???

"Hindi pa. Kakagising ko nga lang diba?" 

"Ay oo nga pala. Well, balik na ako sa work ko. Watch the PSL babe. Love you."

Binaba ko na yung telepono. Tinawag ko si Manong.

"Oh Thirds, napatawag ka?"

"Manong, tanga ba ako?"

"Huh, bakit mo naman natanong?"

"Kasi feeling ko oo e..."

"Thirds, why would you even think that?"

"Kasi Kuya, alam ko I let go of a real diamond but kept a fucking rock na makikita mo lang diyan sa tabi tabi."

"Labo Thirds hindi kita gets. Nag-dadrugs ka ba?"

Hay... Si Kuya.

"Manong, parehong bato iyan pero kitang kita na mas maganda, mas valuable, mas perfect, lahat na. Basta mas higit ang diamond sa ordinaryong bato. But kahit alam ko naman yung difference ng dalawa, I stupidly chose the ordinary rock and obviously I regret it. Nagpakabulag ako sa ganda ng diamond kahit pwede nang masilaw sa kumikinang na liwanag niya. I chose the ordinary rock, which I knew would not make me feel happy and content. Bakit ko ba yun ginawa Kuya? Hanggang ngayon kasi, hindi pa rin e. Keeping the ordinary and plain rock can't even compare to the few moments na nasa akin yung maliwanag na diamond."

Quiet lang si Kuya.

"I chose Billie instead of Bea. I chose an ordinary rock over the most beautiful diamond I've ever laid my eyes on. I ended up hurting her so much Kuya habang ako, nagpipipilit na ipakitang masaya ako na ipakitang kontentong kontento ako kay Billie. When, we both know that's a lie. I can never and will never be as happy, as carefree, as content with her as I was with Bea. Pero alam ko naman na the damage has been done. Na wala nang take backs. I led her on. I made her feel like she was so damn special to me pero sa huli I treated her like trash. Pero Kuya, bakit hindi ko pa rin kayang kalimutan? Bakit? Ako na nga yung nanakit, bakit parang ako pa yung mas nasaktan?"

Akala ko wala na si Kuya sa linya kasi ang tahimik.

"Manong, you still there?"

"Yea Thirds sorry napaisip ako sa sinabi mo."

"Oh."

"Thirdy, tama ka. The damage has been done. Wala ka nang magagawa kundi mag move on kahit mahirap. You regret the decision you've made kaya hindi mo makalimutan. Pero Thirdy, you can't live life continuously regretting that stupid decision. Kasi for sure, you will make more stupid decisions. Move forward, not back, Thirds. Yun lang yun."

"Hay... okay kuya. I'll try. Thanks for the pep talk."

"Anytime bro."

Okay. Open ko na twitter ko.

Shit. Ano 'to??

Nakikita ko rin yung pag-babash nila kay Prince. Ako may kasalanan nito e. The fans think na ang galing galing ko, na ang bait bait kong tao, na bagay na bagay kami ni Bea. Pero alam naman nating lahat na hindi pwede e. Hindi na pwede. And that's all my fault. Tama si Kuya Kief, I have to own up to my mistakes para maka-move on na ako.

Kailangan ko nang itama yung mali ko.

Bea, you deserve all the happiness this world can possibly give. I'm letting you go Beatriz. Ito yung tame e. You deserve better than me. You deserve someone who can tell how precious you are. oHow you are the one of a kind diamond in the sea of ordinary and plain rocks. Bea, you deserve all the happiness this world can possibly give. Because I love you, I'm setting you free. It's about time we both move on. I'm letting you go now Bea. I have to let you go. 

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A/N: 

Sad pala naging ending nito...😭 Kapit pa rin tayo mga Thirbea shippers!! Bonfire today!! Sana may ganap! 🤗 Peace and love always ❤️